beneath the coffee beans.

that side effect

2011-03-03T08:15:00.000-08:00

I love drinking coffee!!! I really do. Sadly, it results in me having bad breath!!! and I hate it. Sometimes, I get so paranoid about it, that I put my hands near my mouth when I talk mainly to cover my breath. Don't want it to affect others around me. Besides that, coffee makes my teeth more yellow-ish!

Just recently, I went to Carl's Jr. with a bunch of awesome college mates for dinner (: Everyone was enjoying their meal to the max!!! I only had fries but they were good enough to satisfy me. We came up with terms like "Burgasm", and "friegasm". Well, I'm pretty sure YOU know what that means! Gosh... just writing about dinner itself is getting my tummy grumbling!!! I've gotta go there soon!

I am indirectly promoting Carl's Jr.

Friendship has its benefits... but so does Coffee!

2011-02-07T10:28:00.000-08:00

I believe my 'blinking eye non-stop' habit has affected me again so I would appreciate if my friends and you could tell me to stop blinking my eyes non-stop if you guys do noticed it while I'm talking with any of you. Your assistance can save me from this disease. (:

A funny incident happened a few days ago. Faiz called me to wish me Happy CNY and suddenly his words went different??? I can't say it here so yea... Shhh!!! it's between him and me but he kinda slipped out a little of it in public.

We laughed so much during that conversation!!! Its always good to catch up with a good friend whom only lives less than 2KM from where I live. :P

Ooo! you know those typical classy coffee served in hawker restaurant/kopitiams. They do taste pretty good don't they?

During CNY holidays over at my grandmother's house (Dad's side), I managed to make the same coffee. I know its not a big deal, but yea, it tasted exactly the same as those in the kopitiams. It's not like making nescafe. There's a little bit more hard work in making it. The powder is fine but it doesn dilute like nescafe powder so you would have to filter it with cloth and all. Cloth is better because it can trapped the fine powder while the coffee pours on the cup. The coffee doesn't smell as good as Starbucks coffee but it sure does taste good enough. Now that's old school fashion coffee back in the 20Th century. :P Coffee...oh... coffee!

Finally I went into detail on coffee eh.

BTW, there's this new movie, "No strings attached" coming out soon, probably on Valentine's Day... The trailer seemed pretty nice so I can't wait to watch!!! To finish this post, here's a few sentence from the trailer:

Dustin Hoffman (I think): so how long have you two been together?

Natalie Portman: Ohhh... we're not... tttoget...

Ashton Kutcher: We're sex friends.

Irony or just unfortunate...or neither?

2011-01-09T09:42:00.000-08:00

I consider myself a guy who tries to be good to others. Therefore, the moment I make a mistake, or misjudge, I tend to feel so so so guilty. Maybe to others, it might seem like an everyday issue, but to me, I take it so seriously. Recently, on the 8Th of January, I went for dinner with my family at Dave Delli's, Subang Parade. After that, my mom decided to go shopping at Parkson for awhile. Likewise, I went to check out for new clothing's. I found the size I wanted and I headed straight for the changing room. Alarick also did the same but he got to the room earlier. So when I reached the room, I noticed my brother coming out. What else did I do? I straight away went into the changing room without noticing an adult waiting to go in. He was like "Hello!!!" and I turned back and noticed him. I felt so bad, guilty, and sad. How could I not noticed the guy? I straight away apologized though I knew he looked pretty annoyed.

I mean, I already apologized. Yet, I still felt so guilty as if I committed a crime.

Even before the dinner, there were a few series of unfortunate events that were of my mistakes. On Sunday, it gets better! I went for Frisbee training only to missed diving to catch an important disc, the footballers just took the whole field even though we were still playing mainly because they had alot of players while U8 only had 11. If we kept on playing, we might collide with the footballers, and the fact that the Kops lost to the red devils by 1-0 in the FA Cup.

I'll stop here. Too much depression in this post already. Ooops!

A dose of Christmas, karaoke dinner and Star Cruise before 2011.

2011-01-03T09:27:00.000-08:00

My mom's boss adorable daughter. :P

Ping Pong on a ship. It's hard!

Trust me. I can't sing. :P

I mentioned the Christmas potluck party at Krystle's house and the cruise trip in my previous post. Ooo, I left out another memorable event in the previous post: U8 SOAR annual dinner!!! It was held at Neway, Subang Jaya. Pictures alone are enough to summarize everything. Ta-da!!!

I'm still here

2011-01-03T08:50:00.000-08:00

It's been some time since I last blogged. So 2010 has come to an end and now its 2011. It's amazing how time passes so quickly.

Now that 2011 has begun, so does college. Semester 3 will commence in January the 13Th. Holidays are finally over. I can say this holiday was the best. Managed to occupied my time going out for trips: Off road camping trip with family. board the Super Star Cruise Libra for four days, and recently just came back from Penang. I had a great holiday even though there were some terrible moments throughout the trips.

Besides that, I hosted a few Frisbee get together with friends, attended Krystle's Christmas potluck party, and basically spending most of my evenings playing either sepak takraw, mini football and volleyball with neighbours and friends. I did all of these in 2010. I shall do some more in 2011. I'll be around.

Anyway, here's the pictures!!!

And how can the world want me to change, they're the ones that stay the same.
-Goo Goo Dolls-

Loving hate

2010-12-06T10:44:00.000-08:00

Where do I begin?

Oh... yea. I hate many things and some people. I just want to hate.

Sometimes, when I'm alone; at peace; staring at the clouds or the sky, I say wtf.

When I forget something or get really frustrated, I say f**k so loud. I'm pretty sure soon enough, I'll be saying that in Frisbee training.

I hate it when people say I'm shy when I'm not. Like I said, has it ever occurred to you that I don't want to talk all the time. When I want to talk, I will. When I don't want to, or when I have nothing to say, I wont. Is that so hard to understand? Does that really make me shy?

Then again, why hate? What's the point? Is it worth it?

Hate because it's part of the human nature. You can't avoid it. It's already in you, so don't waste it.

The point differs to individual. I hate because I need to be angry for a certain period.

Yes! It's worth it to hate. Well, not forever though. Just at certain times... but right now,
I- just- love- to hate.

Tangled!

2010-12-02T11:01:00.000-08:00

I woke up at 9am only to realise I was late for breakfast with Jie Sheng and Faiz. I called Jie sheng.He sounded pretty upset; said it was cancelled. I promised him i would make up to him next time. I felt so bad that i went back to bed.

I woke up later on at one pm!!! Faiz called and he was guilty for missing the breakfast too. Great! Half a day gone...Again! Washed up, had lunch and lots of coffee and watch TV. There were two good shows in the afternoon. "Mother" and 'Land of the Lost." There is this very catchy phrase in that Land of the Lost movie,

"If you don't make it, It's your own damn vault!" -Will Ferrell-

It may not make sense to you but after watching the movie, I understand what it meant. Pretty cool phrase. Later in the evening, Anthony called:

Anthony: Helloooooooooooooo!!!

Me: Yooo!!!

Anthony: Yo Yo Yo!!!Whassap dude?(Humorous tone) You free later at night?

Me: Sappp wei!!! Not sure man. Why la?

Anthony: Watching movie at Mid Valley man!!! Come ah!!!

Me: Cool!!! Mmm (for few seconds) I'll text you back later. Thanks for inviting me wei!!!

Sweet! I did get to go out for movies with my college friends: Anthony, Caryn, Chong wei, Aaron, Jun, Vinteng, Haider, and Tarrence. Ahhh Tarrence went back early though. We watched Rapunzel!!! and what a great movie it was, especially with Mandy Moore acting as the voice of Rapunzel.

Before going, I was actually out playing volleyball with neighbours and friends. Our version of volleyball includes allowing the ball to bounce once, and can use leg. There was Thiyban, Vicki, Wilson, me, Win keong, Win hoe, Afiq and my Court 6 neighbours who played. We laughed most of the time while playing. I shall play some more Court 6 volleyball tomorrow too.

In this post, I would once again like to thank Tarrence for giving me a ride to Mid Valley and to Anthony for giving me a ride back home. A really huge THANK YOU to you guys!!!

I can say this was not a great day. It was a good day. A really really really good day. (:

Fall from grace

2010-11-29T09:00:00.000-08:00

Did you know that the band, "Boys Like Girls" has a song titled "Holiday"?

What a delight! My holidays have just begun. Started about last week on the 23rd of November. I'm actually enjoying my holidays. Normally, I would have nothing to do but now... Its otherwise. The next day after 23rd, I went for futsal with the birthday boy!!! The following day, I went over to Kishya's house for a movie-marathon. We ended up watching season 6 of "How I met your Mother" and "Yes Man." Lesley, Audrey, Mark, Savita, and Chi Leng came along too.

So far, holidays are good and I hope they will still be. I can always use another or more better days.

Oh!!! What a coincidence. There's this song titled "Better Days" by the Goo Goo Dolls. A really good song actually.

I wish everyone was loved tonight,
and somehow stop this endless fight.
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days,
so take these words and sing out loud!-Goo Goo Dolls-

It's not the ugly truth

2010-11-29T08:24:00.000-08:00

About maybe half hours ago, I came across a post from the "Ultimate" facebook on "Ultimate... Not a sport." It wasn't written by the "Ultimate" fb's... I believed they found that article from a guy's blog. I read it. I can't believe how sarcastic he was. All I know is that he is a hockey coach; he stated that Ultimate is not a sport; and he wrote bad things about the game.

Talking more about this article really grinds my gears and brings back bad memories: (Once, while training at USJ 12, a group of teen footballers were jogging and as they passed by U8 SOAR players training, they barked and laughed at us- I'm sure EVERYONE knows why- I was pissed so I raised my voice saying, "Even dogs play football!!!" and I couldn't hear a word from the footballers after that). Its a bad memory in sense that people still look down on Ultimate. They still think only dogs should play that sport and its such a pussy game when its not!

I won't say more. If you readers are keen to read that article, just go to facebook and "like" on Ultimate.

Even I don't like a few sports but I don't write about it or criticize those sport to the max because not all sports suits me. If you are like what I just said, its OK but don't be so paranoid about it.

So devastating.

Life...Broken, holding on, alcohol, guilty...love

2010-11-25T08:56:00.001-08:00

Recently, two good friends of mine: Lesley Lim and Audrey Lim asked me to take part for a video shooting. It was for a tournament they participated. The video cannot exceed one minute. So here's their great work. (: Though its kind of blur in my blog, if you do have the effort to watch the same video on Youtube ([Competition] Life: What really matters...is love), it's much clearer. Maybe if you! are down with the blues, watching this video could probably cheer you up and bring back your smiles.

Oh... Have you heard this song, "Broken" by Lifehouse? Its not a new song but I recently heard it and it wasn't so bad. It was a really nice song. You guys should check it out sometime!

If you must know, my mother has been lecturing me on alcohol. Only just now, I finished less than half a bottle of wine. My mom thought I was sure to be a future crazy alcoholic but truly, I just want to drink. I'm not crazy for alcohol. I just like it. That's all. Then again, my mom always has her way of making me feel guilty and once again, it worked.

Signing off...

The Birthday Boy!

2010-11-24T10:29:00.000-08:00

THONG!!!

The date was 24th of November 2010. The date of one of my longest knowing friend, Wilson THONG Tien Wei's!!! birthday! We've been best buddies since... I'm pretty sure before kindergarten. We used to go out and play in the evenings. We normally run around, laughing, shouting and just living the life of small kids.

Then, we both studied in the same kindergarten, Tadika Brainchild. I know we did! Probably in different classes.

We then studied in the same primary school, S.K Seafield 3.

Oh... and we both studied in the same secondary school, SMK USJ 8, but he only came back when he was in form 4. He went to boarding school for three years. At least we still kept in touch.

Though we're no longer studying in the same place anymore, our friendship is still strong. Of course it is! I stay in court 6. He stays in court 9. In most of the evenings, we hang out at the court 6 mini badminton court and play football with the neighbours and of course, Thiyban, Vignes, Win Keong, Shaun Lee and ahhh... so many more!

So, without further due, Happy belated 18th Birthday Wilson! I hope you cherish it, enjoy it and have a great one. (:

Butterfly Effect

2010-11-20T01:16:00.000-08:00

I believe that we make our own fate. It's what we do, what action we take and how much effort we make that determines our fate.

Yet, sometimes not everything works out the way we thought it would. That's when "Chaos Theory" plays it's part. According to James Gleick, whom wrote the best selling book in 1987, Chaos: Making a New Science, Gleick stated that "The same principle applies to human society. Tiny changes in one person's state of mind can, on occasions, lead to major changes in society as a whole. Or simple acts can lead to unintended consequences" (Gleick). OMG! The way I'm writing right now is so formal. Ooops, coming back to the topic; For example, if a student were to study so well for his/her examination, and is no doubt a sure "A" paper, a tiny little mistake can affect the grade of the student such as getting tired and not marking carefully.

This is just one part of the theory. Believe me, there's more where that came from. Therefore, I believe my actions lead to my own consequences. In other words, I make my own fate but even I can't make that happen. My CIMP final exam just ended. I probavly didn't study as much as I planned too. I only had two papers to sit. ENG4U (English) and BBB4M (International Business Fuyndamentals). Both papers started at 2.30pm till 4.30pm. English was on Monday and business on Tuesday. The only time I really studied was the last 5 hours before each paper. In my point of view, I'm pretty sure those 5 hours were the only hours I actually studied. The other days, well... nothing got into my head while I was studying.

My mom always warned me if I studied less, I wouldn't do well. These words from her always freaks me out because I always studied less than what she expected. I always felt guilty even now after my finals are over. Then again, I knew I did all I can. I made those two hours for each paper count!

I just hope for the best right now.

Raging Hulk!

2010-11-11T08:34:00.000-08:00

Ahhh... My apologies for not posting anything for the past couple of days. Just celebrated Deepavali recently and have been tied down with assignment and presentation stuff.

I think Deepavali would probably be the best time for me to drink as much as I want too. I'll give you guys a rough picture. Imagine lots of Guiness stout, Calsberg, Tiger, Black Label, Whiskey, and most importantly!!!... Todi!!! (Fermented Coconut drink).

You can say I had a good Deepavali. :P

Recently, I'm finding it really hard to control my anger. Just like yesterday, after English class, I was discussing about my grades with the lecturer for maybe 5 minutes or more, and suddenly one girl of the next class interrupted and said "Mr Tan. Can we start the debate now. We're late. We're late???" she repeated it a few times even though I was halfway discussing with him. Her voice was quite loud too. From my point of view, I thought it was really sarcastic and rude. However, as I was too concern about knowing my grades, I kind of like ignored her 'rudeness'. Only after I left the class, that I totally notice how sarcastic and rude she was and finally my temperature was rising.

I mean, I know that I'm taking up her English class time but common. Can't she be polite or something. Oh... and it gets worst. I got home and sooner or later, I started playing Pro Evolution Soccer on PSP. I kept losing. Out of three matches, I lost all three. I think I was so angry that I was cursing the whole time as I was playing.

Safe to say, I was in my room so my parents didn't get to hear it. Lucky me.

I shall call it a day now. Its time for anger management. No use always being angry.

Don't make me angry! You won't like it when I'm angry. - Bruce Banner/Hulk

A hike to remember...

2010-10-27T09:34:00.001-07:00

As I promised, here are the Mount Ledang pictures. This was my first mountain climbing trip under college. I'm so used to climbing among my school buddies: Kah Sern, Chee Peng, Chee Heng, Jia Jiunn, Jeung Han, Terence, Andrew Ng, and Wilson. But I know there's more.

At first, I thought Ledang was going to be boring, because I didn't know the college crew taking part. I felt so alone because I never met them.

I was wrong. I had a really great time. At the end of the day, got to be friends with all 10 of the Ledang participants including the lecturers.

***

Just recently, I watched "A Walk to Remember." Last year, I already read the novel. Never got the chance to watch the movie until now. Majority said the movie wasn't that good. Okay... I have to agree that it wasn't as good as the book. Overall, it was still a really good movie. It made me smile after watching it.

Some, said that Mandy Moore acted really bitchy in the movie. Well, I thought she portrayed the real Jamie Sullivan of the novel. I thought she was the perfect actress for that role. Bitchy? those people who called her acting "bitchy", must have been jealous or something.

That's all for this post. But here's a nice quote of the day. Its not exactly the same words from Mr Morrie but it's still the same meaning.

"What's wrong with growing older? The older you get, you more you learn and know. Because if you've found meaning in your life, you don't want to go back. You want to go forward. "

Morrie Schwartz

Alcoholic Happiness

2010-10-26T10:36:00.000-07:00

Cheers!!! Everyone's happy...

Everyone has their own American dream. Its this sort of pursuit of happiness. Your own form of happiness.

I think its a good thing. Its gives us all HOPE. So if you say you don't have one, I should probably consider you an outcast.

So what's your American Dream a.k.a, pursuit of happiness? (Its a rhetorical question)

The recent updates: Final exam coming soon in November 22. Oh! I finally got to drink again, during my cousins wedding like maybe a week ago. Beers and liquor. They never fail to cool my heart. What else, I guess that's it for now.

Before my fingers leave the keyboard, here's the joke of the day:
Question: What's another word for threesome?
Answer: Sandwich.

Gears grinding

2010-10-25T09:37:00.000-07:00

I just watched Transformers 2 in high definition. So clear!!! HD is really good. Megan Fox never looked better. The way she untangles her hair when she was about to have her first web cam with Sam. Mmm... So hot.

Moving on, thissong somehow caught my attention. Heard it over and over again during my cousin's wedding a week ago. I think its a really good song. Good lyrics. Great song.

"Don't get me wrong, I never say never,
Cause though love can change the weather,
No act of God can pull me away from you." -Chances by Five for Fighting.

Anyhow, I think I lead my everyday life like normal, just so that I could ease the bitterness inside me. Its not good to show your "emo"-ness in public. You'll just ruin the environment. If I'm in that environment with your "emo-ness" clouding it, that really grinds my gears. Wow! Here I am being selfless unlike somebody or more.

Anyway, simplicity yea, so that wraps up this post. Basically, I'm not blogging about my everyday life. Only some parts. I'm just letting out what I feel like saying through words.

Take 1... Action!!!

2010-10-24T18:40:00.000-07:00

"Chances are, we'll find the right equation."- Five for Fighting.

"I can wait forever" and "All I need is you" used to be my motivations.

Recently, I just took part in INTEC Wildcats 2010 Open. Played for a cool team, "Take 1". Overall, we got 4Th place out of 12. Not so bad, but if you know me, I was really hoping to get into the top two. Me and my hunger for wins!!!

All and all, I had a great time playing with Take 1. A super cool team name actually.

Pics are all in my facebook. I shall take the liberty to post the pictures here if I do get them.

Further on, I will try to cut short on my posts. I noticed that people can't read too much. I will be economical on words. Simplicity.

But, I will still have occasionally, a 19 inch cock long posts. Yea! You know how long that is. Reason why? I enjoy writing.

P.S: I really find it childish and annoying when people use the words "peeps" and "woots". Sooo childish. Yes, I'm referring to all you secondary/high/college students. Grow up!

Music+driving= moment of inner peace

2010-10-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

Here's the thing. Lately, my temperature has been hard to control. I think its still at a normal, stable condition. Though, I've cursed so much almost everyday whenever I screwed up on something, forgot stuffs, or accidentally hit stuffs.

Sometimes, for the fun, I would just let all the bad words out of my mouth when I'm alone. It literally lets go of all the negative energy inside of me I guess.

They say that you can find out the real character of a person when he/she drives. I have to agree with that. When I drive, the moment a car honks at me, I get really really pissed. Unless I know its my mistake, then I won't be. But some drivers tend to be over the limit when they honk at you for a tiny driving error.

What will I do?

I drive closer to that car and honk back and drive away. Stupid. Unnecessary. But it felt good for a minute or two.

But with a dose of Colbie Caillat, I feel better. I was attending a wedding last week at the 16Th. For some reason, my mood was bad. Mmm..why? well, could have been an argument with mom, and the feeling of being useless: I was supposed to be the usher of the wedding, but I came late thanks to my brother and father.

The air around me was covered with my bad mood until "Begin Again" by Colbie Caillat entered my ear lobe and the bad mood was cleansed.

It's amazing how music can affect us in many different ways. One, in which I have just described.

"Like a G6", "I like it", "Getting over you" or those other same type of song I just exemplified are, How should I say... Mmm great songs while driving fast or with friends in your car.

New, short, and sweet updates

2010-10-13T09:00:00.000-07:00

It's been forever since my lips last touched alcohol. I could really use them right now. It really helps me to feel better. I'm exxagerating.

So whats new.Mmm, my ridiculously short brother deleted me as a friend in his facebook account. why? because I posted two comments on his long ago "chubby fat ass" pictures. Wow. I didn't think he would be that sentimental to delete me.

I just went for a haircut recently. Needed a new change in me, but didn't seem to work out well. I'll just stick with my long annoying hair the moment It grows long again. But, somehow, most of my high/secondary school teachers give me a cock stare whenever I drop by to school. What's their problem? I'm no student in that school anymore.

P.S: I think that certain girls who smoke are so astoundingly hot and sexy. The way, they hold their cigarette. The way they smoke it. Hot stuff. And where do you find this type of hot lady smokers? In college. Definitely not secondary/high school girls. They just don't fit in.

In prejudice of the arrogant "-.-,=.=" emoticons

2010-10-12T10:44:00.000-07:00

The emoticon "-.-", or "=.=", to me, is somewhat annoying, irritating, and stupid. I never use it because I know how annoying it is. so for those who use this emoticons, I don't know what to say, except maybe you could use it on others... Not me... because, It's an eyesore.

Don't use that emoticon to express your frustration... Use your words. I don't know, use sarcasm, irony, angry, frustrating tone... whatever you like, but not that bloody emoticon.

P.S: Use punctuation marks if you have to. More stylish and elegant.

Not you. Everyone!

2010-10-12T10:10:00.000-07:00

How ironic it is when others around you are falling in love when yours is gone. Trying to move on, but how can you? Its still so fresh and vivid. They say love requires patience and time. And you thought to yourself... Haven't I been patient enough? Well, It takes two to make love. So if you're lover can't commit, and has lost her/his patience, you're in deep shit.

Don't you feel angry?
Don't you feel sad?
Don't you just wanna let it all out?

Of course you would, but to who? The lover whom just broke it off with you? Some would. Others would just cry it out, then suck it all up to move on.

But, you would still believe in love. Though it crushed your heart once, you would still pursue it. Why? Because, deep down, nobody wants to live alone. It's no use getting pity from others when you fall from love... Look at our world. The world will tell you "Suck it up! don't be a fucking faggart! Get your ass up and start again" They might not say this directly to you, but in their mind, that's what most would say.

I believe in love. Do you?

In the song "I'll take my chances" by The Click Five, there's one part in the lyric that goes "Love is what you make it, so give it one more try!"

You can drop love for awhile... but don't give up on love...

It's not overrated.

Love...love...love... what a fucking dilemma it is.

A memorable Period

2010-09-07T09:16:00.000-07:00

It was a memorable period, that period of five years. So much has happened during that time. It seemed like a long ride but when I day dream about it, those five years seemed to pass by in a blink of an eye. Ironically, it was in fact, a long ride because I have lived it. I was in it.

It’s not so much of my everyday life during high school period, but some of the events, incidents and people I’ve met in that period that made it memorable.

My five years of high school life began as I was on my way walking to high school for the first time. My two good friends, Shaun and Terence, bump in to me while walking. So there we were, dressed up in the same school uniform with our pants tucked in eligibly high enough to be called a nerd. The three of us walked to the same high school with an exciting heart to start our high school life. An unforgettable day it was because I felt like I was starting a whole new chapter in life.

Teachers come and go, but Mrs. Tan (My sports teacher in form 3) still teaches in that school even before I started high school. I’ve known her throughout my entire five years of high school. Often called as “fur ball” behind her back by many students because of her curly, bushy brown hair, she has been a really friendly teacher to me. Sadly, most students hate her because she was so strict on student’s discipline. It’s true. She chased me out of school once because I wore shorts. Despite that, she has been very helpful, and caring towards me. At times when she noticed my gloomy and stressed face, she would stop by and somehow gave me words of wisdom. My friends thought I was weird whenever I said anything good about her.

At 16, I was elected as the troop leader for the school scout troop. It was an honor indeed, but a heavy responsibility to carry because of the tremendous amount of programs to plan and conduct. Holding that post somehow made me felt more important and popular in school because only then more people: teachers, and students started to notice me. It was a good thing but it meant that I had to constantly maintain a good image. Not only that, I was also elected as the discipline leader of the prefects, vice president of the English society, and the secretary of the school ultimate Frisbee club in my sweet 16Th year. So, yes! My grades went down. I scored eight out of hundred in totals for additional mathematics, and I failed physics and chemistry exams. I was almost kicked out of the engineering class for failing the key science and math’s subjects but I managed to stay on because I passed those subjects in the final term examination except additional mathematics, but my marks improved from 8 to 24.

Throughout my high school days, I ascended three peaks in Malaysia: Mount Tahan, Mount Nuang and Mount Korbu, all organized by the school. To me, it was a rare experience not many can get their chance on. I was amazed upon seeing the beauty of nature and the scenery atop the peak. It was so special because you actually have to struggle and work hard to reach the peak. Finally, when you reach the peak and hear cheers of joy of your expedition members, in your heart, you can feel a sense of accomplishment and happiness at the same time because you never gave up hope. You kept pushing forward even when your mind told you to back down. You just kept pushing yourself until you finally reached the top. I really felt all of it. It was an amazing experience.

In my final year, I stepped down from all of my previous year posts. With that, I knew I had my chance to start bucking up to do better in my studies especially in mathematics. Slowly, term by term, my marks improved. In the final term before the major examination, I passed my additional mathematics while the rest were A’s, B’s and C’s. This made me believe that if I actually put in a little more effort in whatever I do, I can do anything. Self motivation perhaps but it changed me in a good way. Eventually, I scored 5A’s in my major examination. I was not in entirely happy but it was the best of all my previous form 4 and 5 results.

A very special person appeared into my life in that final year. She was so caring, loving, and supportive towards me and still does. At one time, as I was walking out from my apartment, she surprised me with her sweet smile, wearing a dress, and her hands holding a large red paper saying “Ta-da!!!” Some of my friends said “You are so lucky to have her. Not many girls would do what she just did.” And I did felt lucky, but mostly, I was grateful to be with a girl like her.

Now that all of these have passed, how can I ever forget these memorable moments? It’s part of my life. I’m sure there’s more where that came from. I can tell you all my other great friends and teachers I've met during those five years or all my other experiences, but I guess these memories alone are enough to sum up my five years of high school life. It’s not so much of which class I was in, what happened everyday, what subjects I studied, or which teachers I like or dislike. It’s just those great moments, incidents, people you meet, and life experience you gain throughout that five years are what makes those five years continue living in your beating heart.

What's your name?...huh? Come again?

2010-09-07T09:12:00.000-07:00

Names are what you are addressed as. Your name is like your identity. I have a name. You have a name. We human beings each have a name. We should be proud of our name. Even if you are without a name, people will somehow call you by a word which sooner or later would become your name but it depends. If they call you “Tommy”, then it’s still neutral because it’s a real name. However, if they call you “No Name”, “Butt Hole” or bad words, then you might want to wish you were never brought in to this world.

Names can determine where you come from. If your name has a click sound, you are definitely from somewhere in South Africa. 'The Gods must be Crazy', a movie, is a living proof if you find it hard to believe and just to be sure, why not 'youtube' on Russell Peters.

Besides that, names can determine your race. “Hi! My name is Vigneswaran” will tell you that that person is an Indian. It’s a common Indian name.

However, in this atomic era, marriage of different races has somewhat made it harder for people to know what race you are. In Malaysia, there are Indian and Chinese couples getting married and give birth to a Chinese Indian or as we Malaysian’s simplify it as “Chindian”. Not only that, there are Punjabi and Chinese couples getting married and they give birth to a Chinese Punjabi but We Malaysians tend to find a simpler version for everything and we call them…No! I probably shouldn’t say it. Once simplified, it becomes a bad word to the Chinese.

Having a name is good but what if you have a complicated name like my name, “Gladwin Jiann Singh”. To even pronounce “Gladwin” verbally to others is already heartache. Some people will respond by saying “Glandwin”, “Galvin”, “Goodwin”, or “Gle-glewin” just to show that they did not hear you properly. Others will think you’re fooling with them, the moment their eyebrows go lower, but just to be polite, they’ll say “Oh! It’s nice to meet you” Only a minority of people would actually pronounce your name right with a positive feedback, “Gladwin! That’s a marvelous name.”

The annoying part is when you would have to repeat your name a couple more time until they finally get you, but once in a blue moon; there is a chance that you might actually have to spell your name personally to that person. Yes! It happened to me, but it happened every month that at one point, I just thought of spelling my name out to a person right away whenever I introduce myself to them and I did, “My name is Gladwin. G-l-a-d-w-i-n”. I got back the same lowered eyebrow face reaction.

During an Ultimate Frisbee Hat Tournament, 60 players from different teams would be mixed up and formed in 4 new teams: red, orange, green and blue. I was in red team. It was an ice- breaking session. Each player had to introduce him or herself. The atmosphere was noisy with music, and supporters cheering. There was no way anyone could catch my name. My turn finally arrived.

I said, “My name is Jiann. I’m seventeen and I play as a handler (positions)”

The crowd responded, “Hi Jiann! Good to have you with us.” And it was that simple. Everyone got it but I felt at wrong because I didn’t say my real name. “Jiann” was my surname.

It’s good to have names because a name has its own definition which can somewhat describe a little on your ancestors history. The German footballer, Bastian Schweinsteiger’s family name “Schweinsteiger” means pig raiser. By knowing the meaning, we can assume that the Schweinsteiger’s ancestors were once pig raisers. “Gladwin” on the other hand is a name from the old English language, used since medieval period. “Gladwin” means bright friend in old English.

There are people who are not happy with their given name. Some choose to create a new name which would take off their family name. Some prefer to add an English name in their name. For me, I personally like my name. Though it has been quite a nuisance for me to pronounce it to others, I have somehow got used to it. In fact, I think it’s good to have an odd, rare name, because it’s not ubiquitous. It’s different. Sometimes, it’s good to be different. All and all, names are genuinely important and essential so give thanks and be grateful to those who have named you.

Where My World Began

2010-09-07T08:59:00.000-07:00

When I started day dreaming, I was in fact, still in my childhood life. This psychological behavior became a habit whenever I had nothing to do and when boredom struck me. Mostly, this behavior happens when I’m sitting my butt in my parent’s car on the way to my hometown or on the way back home from somewhere far. Yes! It was boring as I just sat by the window of the car, staring at everything outside. Somehow, when I started to think and wonder for myself, the day dreaming would start. I would question myself so much on life.

Day dreaming was another way of me thinking about everything, and it all began nine years ago in a car driven by my dad, with my mom sitting beside him, while I was sitting at the back seat (suffering from boredom) and gazing at the window, that my mind started to think for itself.

As a kid, I never once thought so much about everything in life. I lived a simple ordinary kid’s life, where I would attend pre- school, play with my neighbours, play with my toys, and watch the kid’s programs on television and sleep. Simple, but never at all bored me. My first question I thought (as I sat by the window) in the car was “where did I come from?” I never thought that my first question would have related to science.

“Mommy, Can I ask you something?” I said to her with my level of curiosity bursting out like lava’s from volcano.

“Yes boy. What is it?” My mother said.

“Where did I come from?” My dad giggled a little as he drove, upon hearing me. I was nine years old.

“You came from my stomach, son.” As simple as that, was my mother’s answer, but I was still not convinced. “But how mommy? How did I come from your stomach?”

“It’s simple my boy. I just need to ask God that I want a baby boy like you, and he’ll put one in my stomach." As a nine year old, that answer was enough for me. Still, I was curious on why my dad laughed. It took me four years to finally know why he did so. Thanks to high school science, I got the correct answer to the question. I laughed too when I finally found out.

I was not much of a religious person. Yet, I still pray to “God”, but He never answered my prayers. I don’t hear him giving me an answer or guiding me. Some people can hear Him, and even have a conversation with Him which I find hard to believe, even if they are my parents, friends, pastors, or priests, because it’s something personal that only they can feel it. At times, I wonder if they are falling into a delusion.

The Bible or any other religious scripture will tell you that there is a “God” whom created the world, the universe, life and everything else, but who created “God”? Why did he create everything? I would wonder and think of the many things that, till today, it’s still debatable, such as the Bermuda Triangle, UFO’s, Bigfoot, and mythology. Then, when you relate to God, you tend to wonder why would God create these things, and It gets your curiosity level to rise as high as mountains, that you want an answer to it.

It must have been a boring class that got me to start day dreaming again. I was in form five that time, that I wondered why the universe was created. Ever wondered why did everything come to be? If I never day dream, I would still be like a kid; eat, sleep, study, and watch television. Not thinking at all about all the mysteries of the world and universe.

I’ve studied science in high school. I know that Earth (Our planet), Mars, Pluto, Jupiter, Venus, Saturn, Uranus, Mercury and Neptune are situated in the Milky Way galaxy. Still, there are other galaxies in the universe. We human beings live in planet Earth, in the Milky Way galaxy. Could there be human or other beings like us that lives in other galaxies? Are they more technologically advanced than us? Do they speak our languages? Scientists would probably say yes because it’s logical and scientific. These questions go on and on and on and never end. Occasionally,
I would talk about my day dreams with my best friend, Wilson and my girlfriend, Nicole, but mostly, I talk about it with my Nicole.

Nicole and I have been together for a year and still counting. She’s part of my life. Though we may be young, but our love is real. We’ve been through so many challenges. Some nearly parted us. Yet, more challenges await us. The toughest of all right now is that she’s going abroad to further on her education. A one year relationship with her was more like many years to me, and now, I have to wait four years for her to come back to me. All she and I can do is to go through it and see what happens.

So far, she has answered a question I long to know and feel for almost nine years; what does it feel like to kiss a girl on her lips? It was the forth day after our first date. We were in her car; chatting and laughing all the way playing a game of staying still in the car. It was odd, but meaningful. I kept losing (thanks to my eye blinking habit) and finally, at the last round, when I lost again, I moved closer to her.

“You’re supposed to stop moving” she said, with a smile on her face.

“Close your eyes” I replied, and she did so. My lips were closer to her and…
I kissed her but it felt normal. I guess I didn’t kiss long enough. I moved back, and she in return, came closer to me, and kissed me. It was longer. It felt great. My heart was beating faster than usual. I felt love, in the softness of her lips. Till today, I still cherish every moment we kissed.

Some questions give you an answer of a lifetime. It does not have to be hand written in black and white. It does not have to be from one’s mouth. Through experience, we can obtain the answers we yearn to discover. If you want to see the view from atop Mount Tahan, climb it and your answer will come from the moment your foot steps on the peak, and you would not have to wonder about it anymore.

Not every question can be answered. Maybe some don’t even have an answer. Well, maybe’s that’s the point because it is these unanswerable questions that somehow gives life a meaning, gives us a reason to live, and something worth fighting for. So, as I sat in the back seat of my parent’s car, day dreaming for the first time, that I realized this was where my world began. A world filled with questions that can be answered through hardship and experience, and questions that can’t be answered, and day dreaming was the medium and still is, that makes me wonder and question the unquestionable.

Of Martians, Bikini's, and Hollywood Red Carpet

2010-09-07T08:43:00.000-07:00

It was the big night. Majority of California have gathered for the 2010 Movie Awards right here in Hollywood, Los Angeles, California. There were rumors speculating the crowd, which this year’s Movie Award was going to be more different. Anxiety filled the atmosphere of the 40000 crowd. All of them were wondering what the difference was. Even the celebrities were curious.

Many gathered at the Hollywood Red Carpet. Celebrities after celebrities got their chance to step on that famous carpet. Most of the celebrities came in a Limousine, but not of the last celebrity. A blue Dodge Viper stopped near the carpet. The door open; the crowd’s attention all focus on that car. She wasn’t wearing a dress or anything formal or appropriate for the event. Megan Fox walked the Red Carpet wearing only her bikini; walking like a model: her hips moving from left to right. All the guys cheered and whistled for her. The women were like “Isn’t this a formal event?” And so, everyone thought Megan was the difference of the 2010 Movie Awards.
***
Just outside planet Earth, a Martian space ship stood still, waiting for orders from headquarters in Mars. There were only three Martian in the plane. The pilot was resting, while the other two were busy scouting the Movie Award using their enhanced far range binoculars, but their vision was more focused on Megan Fox. Of course, she was the only one wearing a bikini. Yes! The two Martian were of male species, turned on the moment they observed her through the binoculars. Somehow, Martian male does have a taste for Earth women. They woke the pilot. “We’ve got to get that female. Captain’s orders.” Said one of the Martian. The pilot just only woke up; blindly followed their orders.

***
The event was going well. The movie “The Expendables” won the best action-packed movie of the year. Still, everyone was more curious on the best movie of the year. The nominees were “Inception”, “Robin Hood”, “Old Dogs” and “Prince of Persia”. The MC, Mel Gibson, slowly opened the envelope. For a second, he said nothing. Then, he finally opened his mouth, “the best movie of the 2010 Movie Awards goes to…Inception!” The crowd cheered. Tears of joy slowly dripping from Leonardo Di Caprio’s cheeks.

Suddenly, the lights went off. The crowd was trembled. In a few seconds, the lights came back, but everyone was shocked to see three figures standing on the stage. It was the two Martian graping hold of Megan Fox. Originally, the plan was to steal her away in that few moments away during the blackout. The Martians, shocked; teleported back to their invisible space ship and blasted away to Mars.

The crowd went berserk. The Martians exposed themselves to the earthlings as a result of their selfish act. Soon, the captain found out; killed the two Martian; ordered the pilot to send the half naked Megan Fox back to Earth, but her memory was erased. The next day, she woke up in her bed. The TV was not turned off. It was the news channel reporting about Megan Fox’s abduction. Ironically, the volume was too low and her eyes were only looking at the ceiling.

*Nicole was somewhat lazy to write an assigned story for her university class which had to be only one page and must include aliens from Mars, Hollywood Red Carpet and Bikini! so I wrote what I could think of. It's really simple.

slowly but somehow reviving in the slowest pace

2010-06-30T01:41:00.000-07:00

Okay!!! Its been like so many months since I last touched my blog!!! So damm lazy ever since college life started. No difference anyway as college is gonna start soon again but I'll be sure to blog... If I dont, I'm sure my nicole has lots of daily dosage to add in to my blog for you readers...

I'll start my new topic with the most recent camp I took part in... It was on the 25th till 27th of June. Somehow, that camp just rose my scouting spirit up!!!

As always, my group of advanced scouts were always prepared for the worst... while setting up our tent, the fibreglass broke and it was almost impossible to set up the tent... we finally decided to build a traditional old school tent made of flysheet, staff, lots of "pancang", and rafia string. It was a success except the fact that we forgot our mosquitoe nettings!

Yes, You can say that again. Terence and me were struggling to sleep on the first night as we were continuosly bitten by tons of irritating mosquitoes but only Kah sern could sleep soundly.

Anyway, I met up with 138th Petaling scouts... (: and 73rd Petaling too... I finally got to meet up with the ex-TL of 73rd, Ng Aik Lynn and well, Pauline Lim whom I met at the Johor Jambori!!! It was great to see them and to meet new scout friends (:

I'm having troubles uploading the ASM Peringkat 1 camp pictures but they are all on my facebook pictures so feel free to check them out.

R.I.P. gladwin's 8 inches of hair

2010-03-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

- from my secret archive -

today, today, today,
gladwin got his first haircut since before SPM.
all his hard work keeping that hair. ): the hair dresser clearly couldn't understand "just trim it".
sigh :/

as much as i can do to cheer you up,
it'll grow back out. (:
it's alright, you got a lighter life.

so never fear, your inches of afro joy will come and til then, i will rub, massage and pamper your head to stimulate the growth. :D
at least you know, when you're old and balding, i'd stick around !
ily.

R.I.P
more than just awesome hair, you are an attraction for women, a shield from the sun, nicole's target for inflicting pain, but most importantly, a beloved friend.
you will live on in our memories, always.
we eagerly await your return.
Nov 2009 ~ 22 Mar 2010

♥

i forget.

2010-02-20T09:33:00.000-08:00

i'm really no good at remembering things, especially dates - and days for that matter -, names and things of that sort. but i'm pretty good at remembering faces, memories and pictures.

so this post are just little things i remember over the weeks i've had. (:
but i don't remember the order. lol.

in search for fabric, gladwin drove me to.. was it mydin? -no suitable fabric there for a nice printed body con skirt- we found awesome leko and bubble tea ! and intend to go back this coming thursday after my orientation at uni. :D

one wednesday, we spent the day spitting seeds out of his bedroom window. ala titanic. haha (: romantic nonsense.
-you got to really use alot of physics for it! throw your head back a little, lean back, place seed at tip of mouth, etc, etc. i wasn't any good but it was fun being a boy :D -

on thursday, we painted his place with horrible smelling paint. the odour was something like... rotten durians. foul. then we had thiam ming's dinner but that was just awkward. i'm usually not so socially challenged but their hype was just too overwhelming. (: but i had a nice time.

chinese new year was not as merry as years before. maybe cause some cousins weren't around or i'm just getting old. (: either way, it's still nice to see the family coming together. gladwin was all the way in perak and negeri sembilan so i have not seen him since thursday. oh right, valentine's day too. frankly, valentine's day is insignificant in my life. it always has been. it's just an exploiting holiday. it really is. but our anniversary was just 2 days away so that one bit me in the arse. oh well. (:

in between, there's alot of ups and downs on the phone. and alot of things that happen to us individually. but no need for that, this is no autobiography. (:

one particular conversation stuck on my mind to be blogged about though.
i was telling gladwin about how every living thing i try to take care of just dies.

*when i was a little kid, i thought my goldfish would like some orange juice for breakfast (: it didn't like it too much ): was the last thing that little goldfish had.

*then i had a little tortoise! :D but it crawled into the drain and never came back. ):

*then when i just started school, i had a cactus for a school project. but ants ate it. ):

*later on, my dad rescued a dog, max. but it strangled itself. ): i didn't know cause i was watching cartoons that time.

*after that i had a fighting fish ! (: i never really knew what happened. i just never saw it one day.

*lately, i had a beautiful dog, pretzel. but he was too high maintanence for me and my family. [ pure breed english cocker spaniel ] so we gave it to a nice family. (:

*at a charity sale, i bought a pair of guppies, moose and goose -the origin of my blogshop name- so first, they had babies and then the daddy died. ): but weird enough, it was under warranty so i got another pair. lol. when my mom was in the car bringing them home though, she lost one. and has no idea how. so i had a new daddy and the old mommy. (: the mommy gave birth again and then it died. ): some babies died along the way. then the daddy started eating his babies! so we put him into a seperate aquarium. but it jumped out and died. ): the babies eventually died off.

* not too long ago, i got two pots of roses from ikea! :D they were so gorgeous and perfectly fine. until a week later, they started drying up ):

roses from ikea in the morning sunshine i get every morning by my window

gladwin : well, i'm still alive.

lol, i forget how funny you can be sometimes. (:

today, i am determined !

2010-02-01T21:11:00.000-08:00

you probably don't know me that well if you're a friend of gladwin's reading this but i truly truly truly am,

constipated.

as of today, it's been maybe a week since the last time i've deposited. :D which is quite a norm for me. so today i am nothing but determined to get it out for the week. so i stocked up on papayas and water and i sit on my shiny white throne. this should take a few hours.
usually when i go, on good days, it takes an hour so i get myself superbly loaded on things to do while i sit and wait. (:

today's List to do while waiting for its arrival

1. watch tv

the view from the toilet to the bedroom tv, via my strategic positioning of the dressing mirror. (: yes i use my toilet with it's door open. for all to enjoy the week-old odour.

2. clean up nails

i switched from the neon pink to electric blue yesterday night. very pleased with this colour indeed. in case you haven't noticed, i am a HORRIBLE nail polish painter. (: so i take time to clean up the sides when i colour outside the lines. :D oh plus! electric blue would match the team jersey for this saturday's match.

3. call gladwin

uhm, Aunty Kim is a pretty long story that we would never never tell anyone so yeah, our own dirty little secret. (:
at the moment, he's busy repainting his place. so i don't get my daily dose of gladwin just yet. awww ):

so yeah, things i do the first day after resigning. i spent the whole of january working, about 3 jobs. if you don't know this as well, i started an online accessory shop moose and goose late last year. so i hunt for the goods, have shoots, do editting, do publishing, advertising, etc. my second job would be as a finance clerk. - i wiLl never ever go back - what i do is mostly, data entry. i sit in front of a computer, keying in every invoice based on memorized codes for 8 hours and get only RM40 a day. horrible. stinkin horrible. my 3rd job was much much better! i get hooKed up by an event guy to simply promote. (: i did a midvalley gig for Shell. 10 hours, 5 days, RM150 a day, tiresome fun. the guy still calls for gigs every now and then so, good. (:

downside to working, no free time, especially for our usual long phone calls. i wake up earlier than he does and i'm off to work. lunch break is just enough time to eat, nap and stone away into nothing. i get home too tired that i fall asleEp with the phone kissing my cheek. i wake up not remembering conversations we had. only to know that i mumble and get upset and annoyed when he goes 'hello?? hello??' then i scold him, and then we argue. ):

but now i've got moolah and time. (: things work out.
all except my constipation. im so full of shit. :/
gladwin loves this shit. :D
♥

after so long

2010-01-28T08:04:00.000-08:00

JM and me sleeping in class..
It's not what you think it is...
Fun with chemistry.
Farah, me and Aqilah.
Here's a nerdy form 4 picture of me.

Hey all you people!!! I guess I'm finally blogging again after so long!!!

But still, I just don't know what to blog about... I'll just start with the fact that I'm rotting at home with my psp. Its keeping me company at home. Other than that, I've been working out mainly because Nottingham Ultimate Frisbee Open is coming real soon, which is on 6Th of February!!!

So besides that, I've got to go out for lunch with my beloved Nicole Lin :) and her cousin, (Min Jia) and Min Jia's boyfriend, Justin Chong. It was more like a double lunch date. To me, I'll be so happy just to see Nicole. It's more than I can ask for since we're staying quite far from each other.

So yea, I mean, Its not just lunch. There's still Frisbee training on every Saturday's. I'll see her in training most of the time. (:

Lets see, I've finally decided to come back and served 132PJ scouts as an Assistant Scout Master. Well, didn't really got that post yet but soon I will I hope (: Besides that, on March, I'll be taking part for the schools XPDC Gunung Batu Putih. Lol, we're not really under school but we're just taking part.

Pretty soon, I guess I'll be starting college too. From then onwards, I won't be that free no more. I think there's lots more to come. It'll be keeping me occupied but well, Its good right?

After school life wasn't as fun as I'd predicted it to be. I'm just feeling so free and lazy which is quite fun but not for a long period. I don't wanna grow a belly. Nicole will kill me if I do.

Hmmm, moving on, oh yea Malaysia Ultimate Open( MUO) is one of the biggest Frisbee tournament and Its coming soon in May. Gosh, I didn't get to play in MUO last year and I'm really hoping I'll get the chance to play this year. I'm not really interested in winning. I mean I do want to win but to play would be more than I could really ask for. Jia Ming and me are invited to play for Care Bears. It's a really good opportunity but William might sign JM and me to another team but still, I guess I might not play for care bears. Oh well, I'll be fine with any other team I guess. Main point is that I'd get the chance to play in MUO.

So I think I've said to much. I'll end my post now. :)

P.S : You'll always be my Baby.

numero uno, baby.

2010-01-27T03:00:00.001-08:00

mademoiselle shoelaces in fluorescent pink nails. my nails have never been so daring, and i've never felt so happy applying chemicals. (: neon colours reminds me of la roux tho. *this time baby i'll be bulletproof *

i felt a very very fashionable transformation in me yesterday night. (: i'll tell you this though, after shopping and getting awesome finds, i still cannot cannot cannot find that perfect black high waisted skirt i've been hunting for. ): so after a little girl talk with my cousin and hours reading style blogs, i fell in love with Andy T [Style Scrapbook] and want to go DIY on most things. (:
i literally felt so inspired to make my own skirt that i want to break into the fabric store, cut out the materials and start sewing weeeeee into the late hours of the night. (: but i'd leave some ka-ching behind too. plus, imagine how cool it would be to have the license to wear panty hose over your head!

* insert death threat here *
- god, imagine if you sneezed and had the booger smothered all over your face. HAHA. i will search youtube for a video on that!! -

so up ahead, lots of weekend projects, so little weekends. plus, weekends are my ticket to spend time with gee, jay ass !. (:

i'm sorry, i just had this URGE to blog about my excitement.
i plan on showing you results and many more.
(: i've got a dinner thinggy tonight so, off i go to find something that matches the nails. i'm thinking, white, black or grey with a pretty pink vintage bag. - pictures of that soon too! -

Leaving so soon?

2009-11-01T23:31:00.000-08:00

Thiam Ming!!! cool... just look at my hair!!! (:

Nabila!!!

Makan!!!

showing off me face again... (:

errr... what were they trying to do?

Chee Heng, me and Chee Peng...

Peng, Win Keong( so called pure guy?) and Mei Kuan...

Samantha the genius!!!

5 Cerdik's!!! (: Hmmm where was I?

Yew King, Kheng Chien, Jia Ming, Nadia and Nabilah

The ex TL and ex- ATL... ( Theresa)

Kheng Chien, Shaun and well duh!!! me la...

My pet daughter( Jun Ee) and I...

5 Cerdik's!!!

Future Engineers...hmmm...

The unavailable's...

Kah Sern and Wilson!!!

Wilson!!! and Shaun...

Kah Sern, Terence, Yew Wei, Me!!!, Jia Ming...

Kah Sern, Jie Sheng...

Me!!!, Azureen, Jie Sheng...

Shaun, Win Keong, Jia Ming, Me!!!, Jie Sheng, Samantha, Cherish, and Mei Kuan...

5 Cerdik so called 'hot stuffs'...

Graduation day!!!!!!!

Damm!!! so fast!!!!

5 years wasn't long...

1 Arif

My first time entering the top class. I even remember the first day of secondary school. All I knew was that Eric and me were great buddies that time. We used to talk all day about Star Wars Battlefront 2!!! We were addicted to that game!!!

2Dedikasi

Sadly, I did quite bad in my examinations and I dropped all the way to the fourth class. It wasn't that bad. I met back my old buddies Kah Sern, and Win Keong... Oh yeah, Chee Peng was in that class too. We used to talk alot about scouts even till today!!! (: I met Adha, Firdaus, and Amin too. Glad I made friends with them. Oh well, only Adha is still here. Firdaus and Amin got transferred.

3 Bestari

Yahoo!!! I got up to the 2nd class. I was absolutely happy. Lots of old friends and new friends were there. Sadly, I sat beside Eng Kiat... He was a bloody guy molester!!! Still, I was kinda quiet in 3B. Oh yeah, I was finally in the same class with Shaun!!! haha my neighbour.

4 Cerdik

Sub-science/engineering. My 7A's got me there but all I knew was that year was hectic and busy!!! Troop Leader took out lots of my time and before I knew it, I was exhausted to even concentrate in class. The best part about that year was that Wilson came back!!! My old buddy since we were like 6 years old...

5 Cerdik

Still with the same people... my grades are slowly improving. No more fails!!! (: Mmmm Frisbee!!! Jia Ming and me were like close buddies in that class and during Frisbee trainings and competitions too. It is a great year as many new things and happy moments came to my life. Met the most wonderful girl in my life, climbed Mount Korbu, U8 SOAR getting second place in INTI Taylor's Open, and campfires...

And finally, here I am, graduating. As I recall, I really do feel sad that I'm leaving school so soon and I thought I might shed some tears during Graduation day but I just couldn't.

We've come a long way,

We've changed,

We're different,

As we reach the end of the road,

All our ever lasting memories are recalled back,

Now as we move on with our lives,

One thing still remains in each of our hearts,

We will,

Always,

and

still be friends forever.

It's almost 4 months. I've enjoyed every moment I had with you. The good times, the bad times. We've been through alot and I'm glad to have joined you, and be with you. When we can finally truly be together, you and me. I can't wait to spent the time of our lives together. No one said It'll be easy but as long as your with me, we can make it through. You make me go the distance for you. Erm well, not all the time but most of it. (: You changed my life. You made me a happier person. You make me live for a reason. Because of that, I am in love with you. I love you for who you are and I don't need you to change yourself. Let's make the best in life. Together. You and me for as long as we can.

Much more.

2009-10-27T10:26:00.000-07:00

Alright... now I'm having problems getting up early in the morning. "Hello Gladwin!!! wake up you dongoi!!! You got school la dei!!!"

I know It's been almost a year since I last stepped down from the troop leader post. Sadly, I'm still tired. I always feel tired and not rested at all even though I oversleep. Ooops!!! shouldn't have said that. Okay... well I still get tired. Not always but yea I still get tired. Maybe It's some mental problem I have.

Anyway, I know that I have to go to school. Not because I love going to school. It's just for my own good. I go because I want to study there. I go for a reason. I remember what Pastor Kevin said about waking up early and all. He was joking about it and at the same time trying to tell the church why do we wake up early to go to work or college or uni or even school. He was like, " common church. you wake up early because you want to do well and serve God well. You don't go because you love it. "Oh yeah!!! It's so early. I can't wait to go to work!!! hallelujah!!!" No... If you are that person, then I think you something wrong le.lol!!! I don't wanna come near you... "

He's a really great pastor. He really knows how to make the church laugh out loud and learn something from his preach. Anyway, SPM is less than a month!!! "ala... SPM only ma. Why so nervous wan" okay... I was just joking. SPM is something!!! It's my future.

Moving on, Yi Ping. I hope you're reading this. (: I know we haven't been talking or texting each other for quite some time. I don't blame you. You're busy. Way busier than me. Well I'm busy too with SPM just around the block. Guess we both are busy but that doesn't mean our friendship is falling part. We'll always be friends. (: I can't wait till SPM's over. Take care Yi Ping. You truly are a great friend to me. Thank you so much. =)

I guess that's all for now. I can't wait to really drive on my own!!!

P.S: Driving big cars ain't easy for a beginner like me.

Nothing much to say...

2009-10-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

Gosh, SPM is just around the corner and yet I don't feel pressured or tensed up. I mean I am worried but I feel like I'm not taking it seriously. Anyway, I know I have not been blogging for quite some time d. All my posts comes out once in a blue moon.

Deeply missing Frisbee so much. It's been almost two months since I last touched a disc. Training will only resume after SPM so right now, I only go for futsal on some Friday's. Other than that, I've been working out at night ( It's not what you think...) lol...

I guess that's all for now. I really don't have much to say. Not that I dont have much, just that I can't seem to pour it out to my blog. Before I sign out, wishing Jyen Yiee a Happy Belated Birthday!!! (: and to Stephanie Chew who will be celebrating her birthday on the 22nd October. Happy Birthday to you Stef. (:

P.S: when you have nothing left, you have nothing to risk for.

Before We Part.

2009-09-27T10:12:00.000-07:00

Before we part,
we hugged each other, so tight,
cause deep down,
I don't want to leave you,
You don't want to leave me,

Before we part,
I kissed your forehead,
to channel all my love to you,
to let you know how happy I am to be with you,
to show how much I care for you.

Before we part,
I kissed you!!!
where our lips touch,
soft,
tender,
as sweet as you,
that one unforgettable moment.

Before we part,
tears were watering your ever loving and great eyes,
flowing down to your cheeks,
I removed it for you,
my thumb.
to wash away the sadness in you.

Before we part,
I hugged you closed to me,
whispering to your ears,
'No matter what, I love you.
You are all that I need'
My one true love,
My baby,
My dearest dear,
Never will I let go,
I am yours,
Still,
and always.

It just keeps coming back.

2009-09-19T04:30:00.000-07:00

Me and Kheng Chien. Happy 17th Birthday pal!!! (: Glad to have met you in my life.

Its a Friday. A day after gerak gempur. Kheng Chien's birthday btw. Happy 17th Birthday Ng Kheng Chien!!! Thanks for being a great and super kind friend to me. (: Haha... ok moving on, I had driving class that day itself at 11am till 1pm. Okay, so it was already 11 and I about to leave home when Mr Chan (driving instructor/teacher) called my house phone.

Mr Chan: Hello!!!

Gladwin: Hello?

Mr Chan: where are you?!!!

Gladwin: Oh... Uncle Chan. I'm coming out d. About to leave house actually...

Mr Chan: I told you to wait outside at 11 right!!! (fierce tone). U make me wait so long already u noe!!!

Gladwin: huh... uncle. U can call me ma when u reach court 6?

Mr Chan: (replying fast) Haiyo!!! You think everytime I must call you wan meh friend...

Gladwin: Okay ok... I'm coming (but Mr Chan already put down the phone so fast) out..

I really felt bad now that I think about it but I thought he would call me and let me know that he's already there like he always does but then again, yes, Its my damm fault. So I got to the car and he always lecturing me about punctuality and so on which actually ruined my mood and his mood to too. Yeah... It was quite obvious while I was driving. He was like asking me to do things fast as in change the gear and let go of the clutch and speed up in a moody tone the way he talked. Then he said that my steering control was bad. He just said that out so straight forward. Bloody hell... I'm still learning and It's not like I'm driving every damm day.

I don't know why but I couldn't do the reverse parking very well that time and so was the hill. I did it smoothly during the second class though. That's when he got even mad.Engine broke down a few times while reverse parking mainly because I was rushing to do the the three pointer. Oh yeah, what made him more sarcastic was when I was trying to reverse, he kept saying that the girl doing a reverse parking on another place was faster than me. Its well obvious that the girl had already drive longer than me since there was no instructor in her car. I think there's when I really lost my mood to drive d. Sometimes being too patient really sucks.

Finally he asked me to drive back home. After that, I had lunch and went for futsal at U-One. Kinda sucked playing that day. I haven't really been going out for sports alot so just one round of futsal already was super tiring for me... After futsal, It rained heavily.

Overall, It was still a great day!!! I had fun. At least I did get to play futsal, drive, hang around in Summit, had pan mee for lunch, and well, got la... (:

P.S: Any little small thing or issue that irritates me in the morning can get me mad for a day!!!

P.S: Listening to Shania Twain really soothes my mind.

Shania Twain- Black eyes, Blue tears.

Shania Twain- You're still the one.

Shania Twain- From This moment.

Shania Twain- You've got a way with me.

Little Improvements.

2009-09-11T10:41:00.000-07:00

Me in class. Guess what book is that? teehee

creative stuffs to do in the physics lab.

That's the engineering drawing lab.

As I said before, Gerak Gempur has already started in my school. Well, most of the schools. So far, I only sat for engineering drawing and chemistry 1 and 2. Let me just say that chem was hard eventhough the tips were all true. Well, I got it the night before the chem exam. It really helped. Sadly, I heard rumours that Pn Ooi, (chem teacher) might not mark the chem papers since she heard that the tips were leaked. I don't know who told her but that person who told really doesn't know how to keep his or her bloody mouth shut!!!

Okay, so here are my trials results.

BM- 69.

BI- 83

EST- 73

Maths- 82

Add maths- 42!!! I passed.lol

Physics- 55

Chemistry- 50

Sejarah- 54

Engineering Drawing- 45

P. Moral- 67

Overall, I did improve. No fails this time. =) All passed!!! That's it for now. Don't really have much to talk about.

P.S: currently listening to songs sang by Shania Twain. (:

There's more to come.

2009-09-02T08:02:00.000-07:00

Finally!!! Trials are finally over. Well, the 1st trial only but that's great news kay!
So lets see, erm, today was EST 1 and EST 2. Lol, for EST 2, I was half asleep while answering the questions.

Main reasons:
a) lazy to read.
b) the questions are so damm long!!!
c) class was hot. 'No electricity'.

Yeap. That's my excuse. =)
Hmmm, I always wonder. Does our school ever worry about the environment? I mean, look how many papers used up to print out the exam papers. Has the school ever heard of this phrase before. "Save the trees! Stop exams!"

Oh well, next week, Gerak Gempur will start. After that, second trials. Exam!!! exam!!! exam!!! =( That's all for now. Cheerios... =)

P.S : Love means you can never be apart. (:

A dash of Red

2009-08-26T09:20:00.000-07:00

Holidays? One week? Hmmm, I don't seem to enjoy it that much. After all, the week after holidays, exams will continue. Only EST and sejarah 1. The following week is Gerak Gempur. The following following week is the second SPM trials. I don't really feel that stressed up actually.

Instead, I feel so lazy and sleepy during the holidays. I know I have to study but I don't seem to do much about it. Okay, I do study but not as much as I thought I could. Gosh, SPM is just next door and yet I'm still like this!!! It's just weird.

Oh well, that's all about studies. Moving on, this coming Friday, there's Frisbee training.Yay!!! finally got training after so long. Then, gonna attend a play at City Harvest Church too at night. The play is titled 'Will You Marry Me?' Wilson said that he watched the rehearsal and said that It was great. You know what that means. That means the play must be superb!!!!!!!! Gotta go. I must go.

Right now, I feel like I've lost the mood to blog already. Somehow, I just don't have the blogging mojo in me d. =(

Always and I mean it,

N o matter what happens.
L ife with you around has made me so happy.
Y ou brought joy, love, and happiness to me and you still do.
-X trenely proud, lucky, honoured, and thankful to have you in my life.

*

2009-08-26T09:15:00.000-07:00

sweet as heaven.

Make it through

2009-08-22T09:17:00.000-07:00

My cousins and I. =)

Ok. Its been 2 bloody weeks of SPM trials. Let me just say It was tiring, exhausting, and sickening. I just hate long winded exams. I still can't get used to it. Gosh, SPM is coming soon too!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... =O

Alright, so why was it tiring? caused I stayed up late almost everyday during exam weeks to study and revise. I always do that. It helps. It really does.It's good. Still, everything has It's bad effect. I got too tired to study in the afternoons. I got even more sleepier.

Hmmm, so why was it exhausting? well, duh!!! exam for almost two weeks are fucking exhausting for me. I only sleep for 4 hours before going to school. Ok!!! It's my fault too. I'm a last minute study type person. Can't help it. =(

Then, why was it sickening? doesn't it suck or bothers you or irritates you or sickens you when you can't answer a question you studied before. It sucks when I run out of time to answer all the questions. I don't know what the hell's wrong with me. Maybe I gotta practice writing more faster. What sickens me the most is that I always have no time to finish the engineering drawing paper. I never do. I do exercise, I revise, and I study but It all depends on how fast I can draw. So no matter how hard I study or revise for that paper, time is the one judging me.

Anyway, at least It's over d. Hoping for the best. =) Futsal with my friends the day after exam really helped me to cool down and finally relax and be super happy especially when was there to watched me play. lol... (: I wasn't at my best during futsal. I did score a few goals. Its just that It's been 2 weeks of no sport for me. I was so tired playing but It was really fun.

Oh yea, I finally got to play Frisbee after 2 weeks this Saturday 22.8.2009. I was still so tired but I must fucking play!!!.. It wasn't training. It was a friendly game between U8 SOAR and Carebears. Overall, we lost 13-10 I think! lol... well, It was just a friendly and plus, we were all so tired since most of us didn't play for so long d. At least, I got to play Frisbee. =) I enjoyed myself.

Before I end this post, I would like to take this time to wish Wendy a very Happy Birthday!!! =) I seldom get to see you but I'll be going to church more. I'll be seeing you more then. hehe... take care and I hope you enjoyed your birthday. WILSON!!! CHEE PENG!!!, make sure she reads this okay. lol...

Alright, that's all for now. Happy reading If you do read. =)

P.S: addicted to

The Click Five- All I need is You.

ACDC- Rock and roll train.

Colbie Caillat- Falling For you.

Linkin Park- New Divide.

The All American Rejects- I wanna Touch You.

The Click Five- I think we're alone now.

P.S: did you know that I'm a little materialistic person? =) Adidas!!!

show me.

2009-08-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

what you say only matters to you.

it's what you do that matters to other people.

P.S: did you know that a pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes? (:

[if you wish you were one right now, no worries, you probably already are. :P ]

good advice.

2009-08-16T06:03:00.000-07:00

have a nice day! ,

skip school (:

P.S: did you know, butterflies taste with their feet ! (:

i will force you to accept this apology (:

2009-08-11T07:05:00.000-07:00

Sorry people!

I'm trying to give my blog a make over and everything just went missing.

So did your links if you were on the list. [ you know what to do. ;p ]

Anyway, trials are tomorrow so all the best to everyone that's also sitting for their application form to hell. :D

On a more serious note, don't sweat it. Just give it your best, i mean that's all anybody could ever ask of ya. (: and don't look back regretting on the time you KNOW you wasted when you should've been burying your head in books.

Everything happens for a reason so keep your chins up!

P.S: Did you know dolphins sleep with one eye open and one eye closed? (:

*smile !

3.8.2009 - 9.8.2009

2009-08-09T09:24:00.000-07:00

Gosh, I'm growing lazier and lazier to blog.

Anyway, It's been a another week. Yup another week and each week draws me closer to SPM. Yet, I'm still not ready and well prepared. I still don't have that mood and urge to study. Well, I do study. It's just not enough at all. I study like less than an hour for like a few times in a week. Most of the time, I only read and read and read books. I just finished reading 'Sunday's at Tiffany's' the previous week and now I just only finished reading 'A Walk To Remember'. Two really good books to read.

I've never cried reading a sad book nor watching a sad movie. Now, don't get me wrong. I do have emotions. My heart was touched reading the two books. Nicole, thank you so much for lending me the book 'A Walk To Remember'. I really loved and enjoyed reading that book.

Ok. Getting back. SPM trials starts this coming wednesday so most probably I won't be blogging for a few weeks. I just don't understand why I can't study!

Oh yea, on 7th August 2009, was SMK USJ 8's prefect dinner. Also a farewell dinner for the form 5's. Don't think there's much to talk about.

I'm so lost with words to say.

Currently addicted to :

Phil Collins- You'll be in my heart
Colbie Caillat- Falling For you
Marie Digby- Spell
Jason Mraz- If It kills me
Jonas Brothers- Fly With me
James Morrison- You Make It real for me
The Fray- Never Say never
Green Day- 21 Guns
Rob Thomas- Her Diamonds
Bon Jovi- (You want to) make a memory

26th August 2009/ Officially Pimped

2009-08-01T09:28:00.000-07:00

Pale, pale, pale!!!

I almost got it... =(

William Shak.

Yee Ler.

Caught...

Marking...

Catching...

I'm pulling...

Go reds!!!

It's been a week or more I haven't been blogging d. I'm just too lazy these days. Don't know what has gotten in to me. Lazy, lazy lazy...

Anyway, recently, Jia Ming, Nicole and me took part in the Monash Ultimate 'Pimp My Hat" 2009. Only three of us from U8 SOAR took part.

So, this is how it goes. All the participants are divided into 5 teams of red, yellow, green, blue and orange.

FYI:

Gladwin- Red Team

Jia Ming- Orange team
Nicole- Green team

I just love my team's role call. Red team captain which is Carroll came up with this role call. "Okay team!!! Give me an 'O', Give me an 'R', Give me a 'G', Give me a 'Y'!!!! What does that spell? 'Teamwork'" Everyone will say O, then R, followed by G, then Y and finally say 'Teamwork'. It's so cool and I think I'll use it next time.

It's really weird and new and exciting to play with other players from different teams but at least I made a few friends in that team. I actually know some of them from Sunway College and some from Catholic High School and Terence from KBU. They are all great players and I'm honoured to play alongside them.

We got third place I think thanks to me who just couldn't defend the last score against yellow team. From 5-1, we caught up to 5-5. Then sadly loss 6-5. I really have to train on my jumping while catching and defending. Jia Ming's Orange team got their gold medal and Nicole's green team won best team spirit award.

Overall, It was a great experience and really fun. Can't wait for next year's 'Hat'. =)

P.S: This time, not many good pics. I was so pale that day!!!

INTI Taylors Ultimate Open 2009 =)

2009-07-17T10:14:00.001-07:00

Ooo I caught the disc. Love this pic!!!

U8 SOAR!!!

Obviously. I'm so dead tired. Just look at me!!!

JM and me double teamed and eventually he scored.

Double teaming...

I'm just not tall enough...

I scored!!!

Picture Perfect

Introducing U8 SOAR's Jiann and Chien... =)

11.7.2009

Wowh!!! I unexpectedly woke up at 5.40am which is so not me at all. For once, I woke up really early for a Frisbee tournament. *Bangga... woohoo!!!* but.................... sadly, I still wasn't done packing yet. Immediately after a shower, I continued packing again, had my breakfast and all ready to go to school to meet there. Sigh, I thought I was early or just in time but I was late as usual. So sowee William.

I just loved the air conditioner bus. I felt so relax on the bus plus I was sitting alone, so I had enough space to move around. We finally arrived at INTI Nilai around 8pm plus I guess. Quickly got to the field, wore out socks and boots and warmed up.

First game was against Sri Cempaka Senior Team. We won by 15-0 I think. OK OK OK , before you say anything, I'm not boasting alright.

Second game was against (Oops) from Nottingham University. They pulled first. We received. Immediately, their players were marking us tight. We could only play near our end zone. We couldn't clear. That round itself was already tiring enough for me. Finally, we broke through their defense and scored first. Soon, we triumph an 8-2 win against them.

Then, our third game was against 'FLYING NAAN' !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They are one of Malaysia's strongest team. I guess that was the game I gave it all out. Not just me. Our whole team. I can say that was our best game of the tournament. Jia Ming dived at that game. Everyone said that his dive was the best of all. We eventually scored 7-4 against them. For the first time, we actually beat Flying Naan!!!

Ok. The truth is, after that game, I was already worn out. We faced El-Nino's at the semifinal. Luckily, we won them 6-5. Just by one point. We were so lucky. thanks to Nicole. She scored the winning point. Thanks a million Nicole!!! =)

Alright, so we're in the finals against UiTM Lions. Honestly, I was already dead tired. I tried to hold on and pushed myself but I just couldn't. My legs were dying. I passed a disc, received it and passed again and eventually, I'm dead tired d. I just didn't play well. Not to mention, I was faked while stalling one of the players. I really humiliated myself. So embarrassing. =(

So anyway, we lost. I'm not gonna say much about it. Still, we got second place in college level for the first time ever in the history of U8 SOAR. I'm kinda proud and happy... still feeling sad but I'll do better next time. Overall, I just wanna say that U8 SOAR rocks!!! and I'm glad enough to be part of the team.

Something worth fighting for

2009-07-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

Rock on U8 SOAR!!!

Hehehe... I caught that disc.

Almost there...

Before I start everything, I just wanna thank Jyen for walking with me all the way to Starbucks to buy me a mug of delicious, aromatic, and foamy cappuccino. Thank you so much Jyen. It really means alot to me. =)

Now getting back. It's been really tiring for me these few days. From last Saturday till this Wednesday, I've been attending Frisbee trainings to prepare myself for the upcoming Inti-Taylors Open this 11th July 2009.

Still get the feeling that I'm not well prepared or good enough to play. I doubt I've improved alot. Maybe just a little cause I just can't see any difference in me yet. It's like I'm still playing the same as before. Anyhow, on tournament day, I'll give out all I can. I've been training for weeks d. Can't afford to get 5th place or 4th place or higher than that anymore. Getting either one of the top three is my goal. Not just my goal. U8 SOAR's goal.

This would most probably be the last tournament I'll play with U8 SOAR until the end of SPM. So far, this is the furthest tournament U8 SOAR will participate in. It's in Nilai. INTI Nilai. Hopefully the field is really nice. William already told us who we are going to play against on that day. The tournament organizers already placed the draw and told him. We're gonna play against 'Oops' from(Nottingham University), 'Flying Naans', and erm... sigh, forgot the other one d.

So yeah, It ain't gonna be easy. Really really really tough. Still, I'm gonna play as well as I could possibly play and not disappointing the team and especially William. Not gonna give up that easily. I ain't much of a quitter. Common U8 SOAR!!!

That's all from me. Btw, that cappuccino was a belated bday gift from Jyen. =)

Transform

2009-07-05T00:52:00.000-07:00

Fallen

Megatron looks cooler this time.

Starscream

Sideways. He was killed by Sideswipe.

Jetfire

Well, that's the only Jolt picture I got so far.

4.7.2009 A long haul day

2009-07-04T08:25:00.000-07:00

He just hates strawberries. Happy Bday Jia Ming!!!

Ooo La-la

That's all of us who came to help out. 132PJ!!!

You know what. Last night I set my 6am alarm. Got to bed. God!!! so comfortable man!!! especially when you are so sleepy.

Next thing you know, my alarm didn't turn on. I woke up at 7.30am!!! Terence was already outside waiting for me. OMG!!! I was fucking pissed at myself. I took a quick shower, dressed up, had breakfast and of to MPSJ field. Terence dad was gonna fetch us there. Main reason why we had to go there. SJKC Lick Hung held their SPORTS DAY there and we were called by the teachers there to come and assist them in all ways.

We got there at about 8am plus. Immediately, we were on duty as security. I really don't like that. Never like doing security at all. I was really shocked when I got there too. The crowd was huge. Almost full house. The speakers were so much better and bigger than our school's one. Honestly, their sports day was even more grand than our school's sport day. I can tell everyone practiced hard for everything like the performances, march pass. Its more lively than our school. Really!!! It is!!!

Ok. We also had to carry stuffs around. For example, water, foods, and equipments. Yea, It wasn't just security. Finally after 2 hours of security and carrying stuffs, the teachers gave us a little time to rest and catch a breathe. Managed to grab a late breakfast too. All provided by the school.

Later on, same as usual, security again. Ok, security as in, we had to make sure no one crosses the line when the race begins.Stuffs like that. Then finally, before it all end, the tug of war. Teacher's against parents. The teachers asked our scouts to join. Immediately, some of the teacher's started taking away the stronger scouts like Joshua, Chee Peng, Chee Heng, and Terence. Only Jyen, Nicole, Jovi, Kelvin, Seng Tzao, Jason and me were left to join the parents. Joshua and the rest started making fun of us a little.

Haha, eventually, parents and us won the tug of war. Finally after everything ended, we got to rest again. Only this time, it was more peaceful. MPSJ was so quiet and windy at 12 plus after everyone left. Just us scouts enjoying our lunch provided by the school again. We even got souvenirs.

Later in the evening, went for Frisbee training at USJ 12 public field. My shoulder was still aching after pumping for a minute yesterday during PJ!!! Darn it, I still can't dive right. Only once when William asked another thrower to throw the disc while the other will go for the dive. Before that, we only dived without catching. So yea, I caught the disc once. William said it was better. Improvement!!!

Then, next we played a game. While playing, I had to stall/marked Stef. Damm, she was so aggressive. She kept on moving around until she stepped hard on my toe with her boots!!! It didn't bleed or anything but it was fucking painful. I just hold on to the pain until the game was over. lol... don't worry Stef. I'll be fine. Nothing big kay. =)

That's for today. It's already too long. I doubt any of you will read it.LOL... =)

Before I forget, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY HO JIA MING!!!

1/7/2009 Fallen

2009-07-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

Optimus Prime + Jetfire

It's really worth watching twice!!!

I can't believe I'm blogging on a weekday. So not 'Jiann' at all!!!

Alright. I was just in time for school today. I skipped duty again. Hehe... but seriously!!! I'm gonna get screwed soon.

School was sooooooooooooo bowing!!! today. We only studied before recces. After recces, we just had to write another report for chemistry. Didn't learn much today. To top it up, no home works people...

So after chemistry, we had to attend a talk on this BRANDS Essence of Chicken. Well, I just don't get the point where the company decides to give a talk to our school but they are just not professional at it. I mean, the guy in charge giving the talk had a soft lame voice. Common!!! he ain't a girl scout. He's a man and yet he can't control the crowd. It was so noisy and he just continued talking. Most people who come to give a talk to our school are just the same as him. What's the fucking point of giving the talk then when they themselves can't control the crowd. Useless!!!

Ok, moving on, today is also Ju Lie's birthday. Well, I hope she'll be happy to receive the present from Jia Ming. Oh yea, the birthday cake too. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AN JU LIE!!!

Today itself got ko-kurikulum for Frisbee. After the meeting, I wanted to train my layout(dive). Sadly, I just couldn't go for it. Not a good day for diving for me!!! I'll have my day. To top up this sadness, a few of us had to play a demo game for the 2A and 2B girls. Straight to the point, I sucked so bad. Really!!! I really did suck.

A good explanation. I was wearing glasses and I can't wear it while playing. It disrupts my focus. I'm wearing plastic glasses and boy It's slippery. It fell of so many times. I couldn't catch well, throw well and performed well. This ain't me at all. Never mind. Next time, I'll wear contact lens.

OK. Before I end, I just wanna say 'thank you so much, WILSON THONG for the gift. I really like it. In fact, I just started using it. Thank you so much pal... 12 years anniversary man!!!

26.6.2009 Sideswipe

2009-06-27T09:15:00.000-07:00

Sideswipe. The best of all!!!

Ratchet

I just love Ironhide. He's still the coolest!!!

Demolisher. Recognized it?

Devastator. The only decepticon will huge iron balls!!!

The Fallen. Cool eh?

Arcee!!! The hottest autobot =)

Soundwave. That's the satellite decepticon...

Jiann woke up at 6.40am after his noisy alarm rang a few times. He was still blur blur, day dreaming, but he soon got up and rushed to take his shower. School starts at 7.15am. After shower, he changed, had breakfast and rushed to school. As usual, he still had to do duties during assembly. He hated it. He just wanted to stay somewhere away from assembly. He can't stand being a prefect anymore but he's still holding on for a few more months. Anyway, classes were as usual. After, PJ, he rushed down to borrow hand phone from any form 2 friends he knew. He found Kavitha and Christina at the ruang legar and quickly rushed to them.

Thank God they had a phone but they had taekwando practice so he only got to see them later during recess.

During recess, he found them again and borrowed the phone to call Yu Liang to confirm the gadget building after school. Luckily, he cancelled it. A slight breeze of relieve flew passed Jiann and he could finally breathe smoothly.'Thank you so much!!!' he said to them. He rushed to Jia Ming and told him that he could join him and Nicole to watch Transformers 2 at Sunway Pyramid.

After school, he got home, had lunch, took his shower, dressed up and went out from Court 6. Nicole was already there waiting for him. 'Yesh... No need ask my parents fetch me d. Got Nicole to fetch me' he said while walking to her car. After fetching Jia Ming, they all made their way to sunway pyramid.

Movie started at 5.20pm and ended at almost 8pm. After the movie, they all wanted to go back home.Jiann noticed that Nicole looked sleepy and tired. Jia Ming noticed it too. Nicole went to the ticket machine to pay for the parking ticket. Instead of placing the ticket on the left side, she placed it on the right side which was actually for placing the money. Jia Ming and Jiann laughed their ass off. Luckily no one else was there with them. At last she swiped the card to the left side. In Jia Ming and Jiann's mind, they never once saw anyone swiping the card to the wrong side. Well It was merely an accident since she was so sleepy that time.

Ever since watching Transformers 2, Jiann just can't stop talking about it.

Anyway, thank you so much Nicole, for fetching Jia Ming and me there and fetching us back home.

Bowing bday

2009-06-21T09:04:00.000-07:00

Oh!!! It's my bday. My bday!!! hmmm more of a typical normal day actually.

Let's see. I woke up at 1.30pm!!! so early right? lol... Yeap!!! fucking early. Then, took me shower and had lunch. After that, WOAH!!! almost 4pm. I got dressed up and pack my bag. Frisbee training starts at 4.30pm so gotta rush rush rush!!!

Got back home at about 7 plus plus plus, took me shower and had dinner. After that, watched 10,000 BC at HBO. Oh, halfway watching, mom brought out the cake. Belgian chocolate cake. We all gathered at the table, my whole family. Guess what? only my dad sang the bday song for me and he actually just kinda make fun of the song. The rest of my family didn't even sing to me. None of them even wanted to sing. They just stood there laughing at my father singing to me. They were all anxiously waiting to get back to what they all wanted to do. =( At that time, all I could do was to gave them a smile while behind that smile hides all my sadness and grudges and a shattered heart.

What a fucked up family right? They can't even sing a birthday song for me. So yea, that's my birthday everyone... Not as what you guys expected but yea that's how it was.

Only me friends sang for me. Thank you so much you all. I so appreciate it. I truly do. =)

Bottom line is, I'm 17 years old.

20.6.2009 Supernova

2009-06-20T10:48:00.000-07:00

Today was more of a scout day for me. In the morning got ko-kurikulum for scouts. Activity for today was Halangan Komando. Sadly, we still had to go through the sand pit which was wet and became muddy.

I was down and dirty. I was marinated with sand. It wasn't comfortable. After the meeting, went home and took a shower and went for add maths bengkel at Kancil. Boring!!! Got home, had a short nap. Got up and change to my scout uniform. (OK PLEASE BE AWARE THAT DURING THE HALANGAN KOMANDO, I CHANGED TO MY SHIRT AND TRACK BOTTOMS OKIE SO THAT I COULD USE MY UNIFORM FOR THE CULTURAL NIGHT)

Ok, got change, and off to school. Finally after so long, we finally get to go out for campfire. Well, not a campfire. It's a cultural night which is almost the same. It was held at SMK Sultan Abdul Samad. I really enjoyed myself there.

To the 10th PJ scout group of SMK SAS, I congratulate you guys on the success of this cultural night. A job well done.

A little joy of accomplishment...

2009-06-19T08:58:00.001-07:00

Now that's me team. U8 SOAR!!!

Frisbee!!! Frisbee!!! Frisbee!!!

So school has finally started. Didn't really study that much this week since we were getting back our exam RESULTS!!! Here are my results for the second term.

BM- 64

BI- 83

EST- 80

Sejarah- 21( well I didn't sit for paper two so yea)

Maths- 74

Add Maths- 27

Engineering Drawing- 23 (ouch!!!) sobs... =(

Chemistry- 40

Physics- 57

Moral- 61

Now here are my first term results:

BM- 63 I think...

BI- 75

Sejarah- 45

chemistry- 27

physics- 41

Maths- 42

Add maths- 21

Engineering Drawing- 58

Moral- 46

EST- 69

As you can see, most of my subjects improved!!! Just the engineering drawing that's all. I really screwed up that paper big time. I was really disappointed. Well, of course I was!!! I was fucking depressed. It's not that I couldn't do. I just wasted time on one drawing which took up so much of my time. I'll do better for Trials. I have to.

So right now, currently waiting for English and moral results. FYI, my English marks won't count yea since I also missed the paper 1 for English. Ironic!!! Well, so far 2A's. That's a good sign actually. Trials is where I'll do better.

Ok, enough of exam results. Finally!!! 2 Frisbee tournaments coming up. woohoo!!! Inti-Taylor's Open and MONASH Ultimate 'Pimp My Hat'. That will be the last 2 tournament's I'll take part until SPM's over.

Back to square one

2009-06-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

Among the paddy =)

Today marks the last day of the second term holidays. Time flies so fast. In a blink of an eye, BAMM!!! holiday's gone...

Normally, many of us would go out, hang around or go for movies especially for the last day to enjoy themselves before school begins the next day.

Sadly, don't count me in that category. I was just so bored today. I actually slept at 5am plus. Mom said no matter what, I'd had to follow her to the market at Taipan to help her. I do follow her but only once in a blue moon. Today, she woke me up like crazy until I finally got up. I brushed my teeth, had a glass of sky juice and went with her to the market.

At the market, I actually met up with Ms. Ong!!! (school add maths teacher). Moving on, now I really felt pitiful for mom. If she went alone, she'll suffer carrying the loads. My dad couldn't follow because he was still camping at ...................? (I have no idea)

Ok, after the market, went home, had breakfast, and went for a hair cut. Dang... I look so so so weird. After the haircut, walked home and I didn't had lunch. Wasn't hungry because my mind was just too worried thinking about home works!!!

Speaking of that, I'm still not done with my home works. Still got a few more but I'm just to lazy to do la. Just not in that study mood you know... Eventually about 4pm, I fell asleep as I lay down on my soft cosy bed. Woke up at 7pm plus, took my shower, had dinner and watched TV for awhile. Was watching 'License To Wed'. A MUST WATCH MOVIE PEOPLE!!!

After that, started doing me homework. Only did maths and one drawing. Anyhow, It's back to school again...

HAPPY SCHOOLING PEOPLE!!! =)

13.6.2009 Drowning with sweat

2009-06-13T10:38:00.000-07:00

Recently, I've been sweating alot. Over sweat you can say... So much that my whole shirt becomes all soaking wet and It is just not comfortable especially when I'm still halfway playing during sports. It's even worst when I'm wearing cotton shirt because the sweat will just stay on my shirt... It's just too uncomfortable. I just wished I could take off my shirt and play but It's just inappropriate.

Today, I wore a red shirt and short sports pants( whatever you call it) and guess what? Halfway during training already my whole shirt was soaking wet. Then, during a Frisbee training game, my whole pants were all soaking wet too. It's as if I just played under heavy rain.

It was so obvious to everyone and over sweating can really affect me while playing. I lose my mood easily. The worst is If I fall down. All the dirt's and sand will stick on my shirt and pants...
Eiuuuuuu!!!!!!! so uncomfortable!!!

After training, I immediately took of my shirt and squeezed out all my sweat on the ground... It was really disgusting for the girls to see but I just had to. Hehe, I actually compete with Elanthurai actually. We both squeezed out almost the same amount. Gosh, how childish of us. Even Nicole's whole shirt was soaking wet but wasn't as bad as mine or Thurai....

I told mom about it and she said she wanted to take me to the doctor just because I over sweat... What the hell!!! I really have to wear jersey next time. Got to start buying more jerseys. Alright. I've been disgusting enough to you readers so I'll stop here then. =)

12.6.2009 Hot, bitter, and sex

2009-06-12T10:18:00.000-07:00

Somehow, I didn't get my nice cosy sleep... I was fucking bitten by mosquitoes. I just hate it when you hear their buzzing sound near your ears... Argh... geram betul!!! I just don't understand why would God create such an insect. After all, he's the creator of everything...
Another reason was the weather. It's just so hot. Well, my mom did turn off the air conditioner and switched on the fan. Previously, It still felt cold enough event though the fan was only switched on but today was just hot...

Immediately, I just got up from bed and quickly took my shower... then had breakfast and went straight for literature tuition which started at 11pm... It was actually a replacement class because my teacher will be going overseas for two weeks so she decided to do the replacement class today. We're finally about to finish the whole relationship poems.We're currently studying the last of it titled 'Tonight I can write'. The title doesn't sound like a relationship poem now but once you read it then you'll know. =) In the mist of learning it, we (my tuition mates and I ) even discussed about relationship status and love problems in daily life's. Well, most of the class, we'll just suddenly stopped learning and start chit-chatting for awhile. I think I'm finally getting used to talk to them since all of them are girls and sadly I'm the only guy and It's mostly girls talk there. I do join in but not all the time...

Tuition ended at 1pm. I got home, had lunch, played the PSP for awhile. Was playing 'Miami Vice' It's not that bad but It's hard. I actually wanted to continue doing my home works but I was just too lazy la!!! I still have alot. Aiks... how then? =( Can anyone make me do my work? lol... What a silly question to ask. Instead of doing work, I just sat my ass down on the chair and started reading the drama/play, 'An Inspector Calls' for the second time. I've got to know every single detail of that drama. It's for literature btw.

Oops, almost 4pm. I closed the book, changed to my sports outfit, wore my contact lens, packed my bag and off I go for Frisbee training. Darn it, I was five minutes late I think and today, we still had to continue the match between red team and yellow team. William divided us into that two teams. I was in red team. The previous training, we were actually divided d and we were down 3-9!!! I guess you can say that I didn't lead my team well. A few of the players didn't know what positions to play, the new strategy and stack. Once a few doesn't know, It really does affect the team and I don't blame them. I blame myself for not explaining well enough to them. I didn't lead my team well and most of our throwing and catches are horrible according to Willam. Anyway, as obvious as It is, we lost. We got thrashed badly.

Before the game, we actually had to do a team cheer.

For red team: Red ants!!!, (I'll say)
Bites!!!, (whole team says)
(pause for awhile then whole team says) Ouch!!!.

For yellow team: We are strong,(whole team says)
We are fast, (whole team says)
We are yellow SOAR!!! (whole team says)

Both teams had really funny cheers once we cheered it out. weehee... =)

After training, Jia Ming, Joe Yee, Nicole, and me went for a drink at Maju. Suddenly, Joe Yee brought up a topic about her friend who went to Germany and Germany has a museum of Sex. She said in the museum got pictures of people having sex, statues of men squirting sperm out(It wasn't real sperm. Most probably water), statues of man humping the woman statue and the man statue was moving in and out. You know...

She also said that there's this lane where the shops are all sex shops. So cool!!! Well, whatever It was in the museum I can tell It's not for fun but It's for people to know how to have sex the right way. I bet there's a booth teaching the ways to have sex... =) Awww... dang!!! I said to much... but It was really fun listening to her talking about that museum thinge... Ok then, this is where I stop. =)

Fly with me

2009-06-09T11:17:00.000-07:00

Well, that's my design for U8 SOAR's new jersey..
Ok!! I know.. My colouring sucks..

On the 7th of June 2009, my cousin, Gabriel from Canada came to my house to stay for the day. He's gonna be in Malaysia for 2 months. He's 21 years old btw. Gabriel is doing culinary and he is currently working as a chef in one of the restaurants in Canada so for lunch, he and my dad cooked for our whole family. Well, he actually just helped my dad to cook. My dad invented a new recipe called, 'Tom-Yam+ Asam+fish= Tomyam asam fish'. His first time cooking it and It was surprisingly good. Maybe It was Gabriel who made It better.

After lunch, Gabriel and me had our boys talk. It's been two years since the last time I saw Gabriel. Finally I got to meet him again. Later on, my dad asked If we wanted to go for movies at Summit. All of us agreed to watch 'Night at The Museum 2'. So It was dad, Sharmaine(my sis), Gabriel and me who went for the movies. Mom had to fetch her mother(my grandmother) back to her hometown while Alarick(my gay brother) just wanted to stay at home and play his beloved DOT-A.

The movie started at 9.40pm and ended around 11.30pm I guess. It was so funny to watch. Really truly madly deeply loved and enjoyed the movie. I really would love to watch it again. It's worth it I'm telling you. You won't regret watching that movie. Towards the end of the movie, I mean at the start of the credits, they'll normally play the theme song of the movie and these theme song was really great. I loved it. I have a good feeling It's sang by Jonas Brother's and most probably titled 'FLY WITH ME' since that sentence was always mentioned during the chorus.. =)

The next day, Gabriel had to leave. He'll be staying at my uncle's house this time so before he left, I got him to tagged along for futsal with my friends at the afternoon's. Before that, in the morning, I went for Frisbee training but I was fucking 20 minutes late since my phone alarm didn't work. Luckily, William didn't chase me out from training. Thank you so much William. After training, I went back home for breakfast since mom already prepared breakfast at home. If not, I'll be having breakfast outside and gosh!! Nicole said I was anti-social and shy because I went back home for breakfast instead of joining her and my friends for breakfast outside..
That's what she said to me on facebook. Argh.. Nicole Lin!!

Ok, after futsal, we had ice-kacang at Giant. I was so exhausted. First, Frisbee. Then futsal. I sweated more than a bottle of water in one day.. hehe, just a lucky guess.. =) I reached home and took shower first. I was still sleepy that I fell asleep at my bed as I lied down. Sigh, I didn't even managed to say bye to Gabriel. He left an hour ago before I got up. I was just to tired to get up..

Alright now the following day, 9th of June 2009. Jia Ming and me went to Sunway for Frisbee in the evening. Sadly, not many of their players came and so was our team. Only, Jia Ming, Thurai, Yee Ken, my bro, Kok Leong, and me. While playing, I saw Nicole who just came to the field but she didn't play. She just only finished her class.

Haih, and sadly, Jia Ming's phone was stolen by a negro (most probably studying at that college too). We saw him sitting next to our bags. We quickly tried to score fast and rushed to our bags. By then, that bloody asshole was gone. If only we could make out his face, we could have caught him red-handed. Whoever that fucker is, I hope he rots in hell and I fucking hope he suffers in his life cause he just made my good friend pissed. All of Jia Ming's information and important messages are all gone because of that no-good-dirty-rotten-fucking-bloody-asshole-phone stealer. Damm that guy!!

Whatever it is, I hope you'll be ok Jia Ming. Cheer up buddy.. It's hard to accept but what to do.. This world ain't filled with good people. Don't be too moody or EMO for so long like 'you know' LOL.. It'll just ruin you. Chill okie buddy.. =)

P.S: Don't tell my brother that I just called him gay in this post. LOL.. especially If any of you are reading this post. Just wanna punished him for being so fucking rude to me and my family..

Kuala Selangor

2009-06-07T10:36:00.000-07:00

I'm the odd one not pointing... =)

Very itchy la in the paddy field...

That's the paddy field.

From the top of Bukit Malawati

Peng, Shaun, Jeung Han, Jie Sheng and me!!

Far in front is the straits of Malacca.

Cannons!!

The lighthouse on Bukit Malawati

Monkeys..

Oops.. Before I could take a picture of the food, It was all swept away. Yummy!!

6.6.2009

Damm.. my phone alarm didn't wake me up. Luckily Peng called me a few times until I could finally sit up. I still wasn't that late. I reached school just in time actually. FYI, my SMK USJ 8 English club society organized a one whole day trip to Kuala selangor. It was a one hour plus trip. Quite far but not that far.

Our first destination, Sekinchang paddy field.. Nothing much though. Just a wide open paddy field.The only interesting part was when Veronica accidentally slipped and one of her foot actually sunk down on the mud. The mud was really slimy and hard to wash off. Kesian u la Veronica..

Next, off to Sekinchang town. Well, we actually just passed by there for awhile. We didn't get to go down. Awhile later, we had lunch at KFC and guess what? Peng and me bought a glass of Anchor beer from 7-eleven after lunch. It tasted really good.

Ok, so after lunch, we got in to the bus and off to Bukit Malawati. Our guide said that we had to walk alot. He made it seemed tough but It was just merely walking up the road that's all. Still, the weather was so so so fucking hot. I sweat non- stop even though I just walked for awhile. From the top of the hill, we could see the straits of Malacca. Oh yea, there were alot of monkeys there too. Those monkeys were really rude. They snatched whatever food you have.

Alright, moving on, our next destination was the fishing village. There was a small town there too. Most of the restaurants there are seafood restaurant. Our guide let us walk around the town to buy mainly snack foods. Finally, we had an early dinner there too. OMG, the food was just great. It's all fresh and good to eat.

Next, the firefly park. It wasn't really that exciting though. So boring and still bloody hot. There weren't many fireflies anymore. It decreased alot. We had to keep quiet all the way too. The swamp was dead quiet and boring. Since I had nothing to do, I dipped my hand in the water and It was really warm. Soon, I splashed at Kelvin. Hehe.. Honestly, It was so boring so splashing water at others at least made it a little fun for me.

So that's it for the Kuala Selangor trip. We got home at about 11pm. All and all, It was a great trip.

5.6.2009 / Of Bak Kut Teh's and Discraft =)

2009-06-05T09:46:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 11am today. Didn't really do much at all. Had breakfast, and read the newspaper and the best part is, today I can drink coffee. I took a very late shower. Before that, was revising a little on chemistry and physics since yesterday I had tuition on that two subs. Didn't wanna forget what I learn so better revised now.

Darn it.. I missed literature tuition yesterday too. Really pissed at my parents since they totally forgot about it and instead they were at my auntie's house at Kelana Jaya chit-chatting I guess. If only I could drive, I would drive to tuition. I really would. I can't afford to miss any of the class. I'm guessing my lit teacher, Mrs Joyce was dissapointed at me for missing tuition the second time since she didn't reply back. So sorry, Mrs Joyce.

Getting back.. I had my lunch after my shower. Then, lied down on my bed and dozed off until 3.50pm. Just nice to get ready to pack up for frisbee training. I don't think I performed well in training today. I can't seem to jump nicely and my passes weren't accurate enough. At least, I learned something today from William. He taught me how to fake better while handling the disc. According to him, he said my previous fakes weren't real enough. OMG, my orange Discraft looks really bad. So many deep scratches and some of the designs are like almost fading away. Sobs.. but It's still good to use and It has lasted almost half a year. Hopefully It'll last as long as possible and just hope no assholes would throw like shit when throwing my disc. It ain't cheap ok!! Its RM 35 and branded.Woohoo.. and It's my first and SPECIAL discraft.. =)

After training, while walking out from school, I noticed that Nicole also had the same water bottle as me only hers has a different logo. Btw, you still owe me bak kut teh, Nicole Lin!! =) LOl.. at least I'm not the only one in U8 SOAR using that bottle.. =)

Went home, took my shower, had dinner, read a book but still not done yet, and here I am blogging..

Still feeling a little deppresed but I'll be fine.. =)
Hopefully everything will be ok again..

Fucking Rumours..

2009-06-04T09:58:00.000-07:00

Kok Leong told me how much rumours can affect a person's life.. since he himself couldn't stand all sorts of bad rumours about him. I did advice him to drop of the rumours and as long as he knows where he stand, then everything will be ok. That's what I told him but I guess I left out the part where if the person doesn't believe in you but believes more in the rumour, and how do you settle that?

After what happen to me, I can't even help myself or do anything about it. Furthermore, I've never even been accused of cheating a friend on their loved ones or ever being a two-timer. That ain't me. So when there are rumours about it, I seriously tend to not give a shit about it because the rumour ain't real and I know where I stand. And where I stand is just a close friend and nothing more than that..

These kind of rumour last long (2 months plus I guess) and I'm sure that It's hard to forget for them and me as well but I did what I could to proof those rumours wrong to those who choose to believe it. For a moment, we all managed to move on and forget about it but I was wrong. People were still talking about it and so on and () heard it and was disturbed with it so () called me and asked me straight forward whether I was cheating with .... For me to hear something like that already hurt me so bad and ruined my whole day.. I never expected something like this to happen. Never ever ok!!

I don't think I should go in to detail anymore. If () is reading this, let me just make it clear to you that I'm not those kind of person you think I am. Mainly, because you barely know me and the real me is not what you think based on the rumours. I doubt you'll trust me. I don't know what I could possibly do for you to trust me. Haih.. that's all I've gotta say. Don't wanna drag on anymore..

Before I fall

2009-06-01T09:54:00.000-07:00

I watched my fellow comrades grieving in deep pain until their last breath,

I watched my best friend died right in front of me,

Oh... I could not have helped him,

For there was nothing I could have done to eased his misery and pain,

The letters to his loved ones will speak of his braved death in combat,

still for me, he died a suffering man.

Yet, I'm still fighting this war,

A war I can't win,

I'll die sooner or later,

That's certain,

For now, I'm still alive.

Everyday,

I take out a picture of my lovebug,

All crumpled, teared a little, but her beauty still there,

and yet, I'll never meet her again,

To feel at one with her,

To taste her forever sweet lips,

To hold her so close till I just can't let go,

To hear her calm and graceful voice,

All that, Gone!!!

Only in my memories It shall remain.

The whistle blows,

The regiment's one last stand,

Outnumbered by many, but

Our hearts and spirit, still strong,

The big gate falls to it's knees,

enemies pouring in,

Our final hour,

A one last fight,

A one last stand,

A one last glance at her,

before I fall.

P.S: Don't really know why I actually wrote this. First time writing something like this. I doubt It's nice or anything since It's my first time.

Stay the course!!!

2009-05-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

I slept at 5am plus today. Blogged till 1plus. Then, spent more than an hour chatting with Jia Ming on MSN . Mainly about his problems. I really pity him. Tried to adviced him and all but he just won't go for it. Whatever it is Jia Ming, I hope U'll find a way to get things ship-shape again before IT'S TOO LATE. Good luck pal.

Finally, he wanted to take his nap so next, on the list to chat with was Xian Jin and we chat up till 5am plus. Only this time, it was all about me. The topic was on me. The best thing about Xian Jin is that she is straight forward all the way when chatting to me in sense whenever I voice out any problems I have and well, you know the rest Xian Jin... After knowing all this from her, I soon realize that all this while, I've been living in denial. It's like I assume that what I'm doing is right but It was all a bad mistake.Unwise... So unwise of me. How could I have not thought deeply in to it? I assume I did but I wasn't thinking wisely enough. Xian Jin went all out straight to the point with me telling me to find a solution and act fast before things go from bad to worst. Because of that, I thank you Xian Jin. For spending your time telling me to do the right thing. I so truly, madly, deeply appreciate it. Thank you so much. =)

Finally I had to go to bed. My eyes were getting heavier and heavier to open so really needed to sleep. Woke up at 12plus. Blur-blured, day dreaming, speechless and breathless. I fold my blankets, arrange my pillows and walked out to the living room. I was still so sleepy that I even lay on the floor. Somehow, just forced my self to get my ass up and start the day.

Later in the afternoon, went out for movies with Wilson, Andrew, Peng, Chun Keat, 'Kah Sern and Christina' at Sunway Pyramid. We watched TERMINATOR SALVATION. OMG, It was great. Everything was just superb. The best part was, when the machine and a hot woman actually kissed lips to lips. Quite cool wei but please bare in mind that the machine was in human form like in the previous Terminator movies.Only this one had a real heart and feelings. All and all, It was a really great and touching movie. Terminator rocks!!! Weehee... Came home later by bus. Then, went to Maju with Wilson. Talked alot about our lifes and so on. Thanks pal for hearing me out.

So that's it for now. Nothing much happened at night besides the fact that I'm blogging right now.

The take's over, the break's not...

2009-05-30T09:55:00.000-07:00

It's been three weeks of nothing but total pressure, lack of sleep, tiredness, and no sports. All because of this 2nd term exam. It's been a year and I'm still not use to two or three weeks of exam. It's just bloody too long... and as always, I'm the last minute type of study person. Almost everyday during exam, I'll stay up till 2 or 3am just to study but not everything goes up to my head. I won't study in the afternoon because I'm always asleep that time. Just to tired to study in the afternoon and I just can't seem to concentrate studying in the afternoon too.

Anyway, after those three weeks of fucked up exam!!! It's finally over. Feel so free now. Just for now. =) No more worries. I'll just summarize all the subjects yea:

BM: Erm, maybe I screwed up a little on the novel. Other than that, It would be my first time to write a 350 words informal letter in section B because I normally go for the story type essay.

BI: Nothing much to say... =)

Maths: I have a good feeling of getting a good B this time... hehehe which is something a rarely achieve in maths.

Add Maths: I hope to fail well this time... 30 plus... That's my target.

Chemistry: OUCH!!! I had a feeling of passing this time but our teacher came in the last day and said that we did very bad. Sobs...

Physics: I think I'll improve this time. Got alot of faith in it... =)

Engineering Drawing: Let's just hope I'll pass. That's all I can ask for...

P.Moral: I somehow managed to memorize all the fucking Nilai's and definition. Such a huge surprise so yea I'll get an A this time. I really hope too. I've got too.If not an A, then at least a solid B.

Sejarah: I missed out my paper two. I blog about it already so you guys should know.

EST: damm... my report... As usual... no time!!!

So that's all I can say for exam. All and all, I just wanna do better this time. Just a little improvement should be enough. Trial is where I'll improve as much as I can... I've really got to.

That's all for now. =)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS HUMAN =)

Bitter Pill to Swallow.

2009-05-22T10:26:00.000-07:00

Darn it... another week of exam again and another one more week to go. On Monday was Add Maths 1 and BM 2. For the first time in my life, I had no time to finish up the add maths paper 1 questions. Normally in less than an hour itself, I'll close the paper mainly because I can't answer the questions... but this time was a little different.

On Tuesday, sejarah 2 and English 1. Sad to say that I was down with food poisoning... Fucking food poisoning!!! I can still re seat for the paper but the marks wont be counted... Sobs...

Wednesday le... maths 1, sejarah 1 and moral... On Thursday was only maths 2. Oh yea, I had lit tuition on thursday too. Felt pretty bad that day too. The girls at the tuition thinks I'm too quiet. It's not that I don't wanna talk alot or anything, I just thought of taking it slowly first. I don't wanna be too talkative with them afraid that I might start an argument or anything bad. Haih... I dunno how to explain it la. Still, I have to say that I'm not that quiet during that tuition. It's just I talk less. Hope they can understand that. FYI... I'm the only boy in that tuition... =)

So finally on Friday, it was EST 1 and English 2. I think I kind of screwed up for the report in EST 1. English 2 was ok. Oh yea, before sitting for the EST 1 paper which started at 8.35am, En. Noraizam, Fadhli, Daniel, Omar, Azril and Faiz and me were all sitting down chatting as though we didn't really care much for EST 1. At first, I was actually studying but then En. Noraizam came to me and asked if I was able to go for the scouts camp in July. 'Tak boleh la cikgu... Saya dah janji kepada Mak saya that Korbu will be my last camp until SPM tamat' was what I could say to him every time he asked me. Well, I just hope he can understand that because normally when he asked me to go for camps, I've always said yes to him. That was last year actually since I was still TL that time... Well, his been a really great teacher to me. I hope I won't disappoint him by telling him I couldn't go for the camp...

Ok!!! getting back to the gathering. So while we were talking, the Malay boys came and joined us too. At first, we started talking about mountain climbing. Then out of the mist, we started talking about sex? ... Don't really know how it started but it did. He told us alot of things about sex not for the fun of it but just for more info ma... Then, when one of the boys brought up masturbation, En. Noraizam told us that masturbating will cause us to go sterile in the future... Some of us might disagree with it because sperm will regenerate again after 3 days right? That means that it can still regenerate after masturbation. I told him that myself and I kind of forgot what he told me later on. He said that God gave us a dick to fuck.Not for our hands to masturbate. He mentioned that using our hands had something to do with killing of the cells which leads to sterility and so on bla bla bla. That's all I remembered. =)

So upon hearing it, Azril asked teacher how to control it. I mean, It's not easy to stop masturbating. It's addictive. He told us that he himself can't explain. He said it depends on us actually. FYI... I don't masturbate frequently or everyday. I'm not that desperate for sex but I've got to learn to control. Maybe once a month. Ouch!!! That's tough... Oh well, It's for my own good right... Sobs...

Anyway, I've still got another week of exam. It's killing me wei. So far, so good though. I hope I can do better this time. I've got to...

So that's all for now... =)

Signing off...

Big apologies to readers..

2009-05-16T11:45:00.000-07:00

I am so sorry about my last post. It's so messy and messed up. Fuck la.. I can't seem to space out to paragraph form. I did it a few times but it just ends up the same as it is.

Dono why wei. Shitla..

So, if u guys are having a hard time reading it, well just try to go on and read it only la.. If you can't then forget about reading it okie..

signing off..

Pictures of the last day of the Mount Korbu expedition and something else =)

2009-05-16T10:17:00.000-07:00

Finally in the bus.We're going home..

Shaun and Chun Keat

Wilson and Shaun.

Taking a short break.. weehee =)

smiling. =) Teehee..

Kai Qin rushing down to base camp..

As we were walking back, we passed by the dam again.

It really was a nice and relaxing view.

Ooo.. we passed by an orang asli house?

Finally out of the jungle!! Hello civilization..

Everyone at base camp..

Finally reached base camp.. Fucking exhausted but we made it.

Jia Ming!!!

So I'll just start off from the 3rd day first. I already post the pictures earlier on but here's a little more in detail. We got up at about 7pm or so, dressed up and had instant porridge for breakfast. Yummy!! It tasted like seriously real porridge, chicken flavour ok!! Then we packed up and group 1 which was the fast climbing group started off their journey first. Chee Peng, Chee Heng, Chun Keat, Jeung Han, Vignes, Kugi, Kah Sern and me were in that group too not because we wanted too but it was teacher's order.

Said bye!! to everyone and gave a smile to Jyen like I always do and zoom.... we left. After passing by 2 checkpoints which took us nearly an hour plus, we finally arrived at the third checkpoint which was also our last source of water supply. At that checkpoint itself, Chun Keat decided to stay and wait for the others while we left first. Basically, he was tired and sick.

After a few more hours of climbing, we finally arrived at another checkpoint, Bukit Botak but it wasn't entirely bold. It was just one patch of it with no trees at all. From that place itself, we could see the view of hills all around. All total green. One of the rangers said that we had to climbed two more peaks to finally reach the peak of Gunung Korbu. He kept pointing to the next peak but the clouds were covering it. Finally, as the clouds passed by, all of us were shocked and immediately our spirits shattered. The next peak itself was bloody high and 85 degree's straight.

Still, we continued on. Now, the trail was getting really really tough. Every step takes us nearer, closer and higher to the top. Well, tough in sense, the trail was really steep and slippery and narrow. At one part was more like a giant step. We had to climb on the root of a tree on top of us to get up higher to the next level and vignes nearly got stuck and lost his footings. Luckily Heng managed to grabbed his hands and lift him up to safety before he could nearly fall.

FINALLY!! After a non stop 3 to 4 hours of climbing from one peak to another, we reached the top. Everything felt better now. The weather was chilly, the ground was grassy and soft. It was so comfortable. We set our tents and the girls tent and some of us went down to help the other groups. Immediately, I called my mom.Luckily got signal but she wasn't picking up. Called her few times but she still didn't pick up so I called Yi Ping instead. U know what.. we even talked about MUO( Malaysia Ultimate Open) that time.Gosh.. She even passed her phone over to her bf to tell me more about it. Let's just say we are all in for Frisbee!!

It was getting darker and we started cooking dinner. Immediately after dinner, I went straight to the girls tent to lie down for awhile. It was too cold outside. Cooler than air con that's for sure. Only Krystle, and Mei Ling were inside having their dinner too. The truth was, my whole tent was occupied with my team members and other friends so the girls tent were my only options left. Finally,I was all alone in that tent. I kinda slept for awhile. I woke up later to find that Jyen, Nicole and Man Yi were in the tent too. I sat straight and Jyen was beside me. Ooo..

Later, Wilson, Andrew and Chun Keat came in too. We all started chatting and made jokes and soon it was nearly 11. I was so sleepy I just couldn't stay up so was everyone else. Chun Keat and Andrew left first so only 6 of us were inside while the other tent got 9 people sleeping there!! All and all, it was the BEST NIGHT ever out of all the 4 nights of this expedition. Don't ask me why. =)

OMG.. I've said so much. I've still got the 4th and last day to blog about too but I'm just gonna stop here first. Anyway, these are all the 5th day/last day pictures of the whole expedition. As you can see, as soon as we got out from the jungle, we had to walk through the tar road to finally reached base camp..

Ok. That's about it from me. Wow.. I've still got my bloging mojo. Woohoo.. =)

Tied together with despair

2009-05-15T10:42:00.000-07:00

Well, exam has finally started. First paper itself was LK(Lukisan Kejuruteraan). I've never scored an A before so far for this subject.

I normally can't finish drawing everything within the 2 hours 30 minutes. Anyway, teacher said he set it very hard and if can score an A, he guarantee's that we'll score A1 in SPM for that sub.

Sadly, I did quite bad. First question itself already I had some problems with it. I guess I'll most probably pass. That's the best I can hope for though I studied and did so many practices. I just don't fucking get it..

Personally, I'm just not like Jia Ming and Shaun. They are so natural for this subject. It's like they already have the talent in them. They always score A1. I bet they'll score A1 too for this term.

Oh well, I guess I'm really not suitable to take up this subject. It's just not my thing. My biggest regret ever!! but I'll do what I can to improve. Really hope for an A la!! Still got 2 more weeks of exam. So bloody long and right now, It's so hard for me to focus and concentrate when I'm studying or revising.

There's just so much things running in my mind. I lose focus easily. All of a sudden while studying, I can just day dream and think about something else for a long time maybe 5 minutes or so.. WHY? It's so wrong.. I don't feel like myself anymore.. So lost, so blurred out, so dull, weak minded and sleepy most of the time. So FUCKING fed up d.. SPM is killing me day by day.

That's all for now..

Tagged!! Your in!! =)

2009-05-02T10:18:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Azril..

1. That I'm seriously blur and it really affects my life. Can't seem to find a cure for that.

2. I forget things very fast. Suffering from short term memory loss.. =(

3. I wish goodnight to my glasses before I go to bed.( Even the broken ones) I still keep it
in a safe box for memories even until today.. Jyen was the first person I ever told about it.

4. That I'm seriously in to COFFEE. Oh.. you guys already know that.. LOL..

5. I'm an alcoholic but I can control myself.

6. I've never got drunk before. Only got high once and it felt great. Woohoo..

7. I'm an open minded person. Can talk about almost anything but don't push it!!

8. I'm not much of a quitter. I don't give up that easily.

9. I'm still waiting for my first wet dream.

10. That I'm currently single and available.. =)

11. That my biggest regret was to enter science stream while my main interest was more to
arts. Now, I'm struggling and suffering.. =(

12. I used to get scared once I see ghost mask. That was like 5 years ago but now I've changed.
Try scaring me and I'll punch you!!

13. When I was still 5 years old, I really love 'Michael Learns to Rock' songs. I could remember
all the song lyrics that time.

14. Every year, in a period of 2 months or so, I start blinking my eyes alot. (Stop laughing Jyen)

15. I love watching 'Desperate Housewives' ever since form 1. =)

16. I have problems introducing my name to other people. They'll be like 'Goldwin', 'Kelvin',
'Gladevin' as they try to pronounce my name. Sobs..

17. That I really eat alot especially when I've got nothing to do but I still don't seem to grow
big or increasing in weight..

18. When I was in form 1, I failed the Grade 3 practical piano examination by only 1 fucked up
mark. I stopped playing piano after that..

19. I've never wear boxers before.

20. I only had one good great dream in my life. Shh.. It's personal. =)

21. I seldom eat vegetables mainly because I hate it and I just can't chew it. I'll throw up if I
keep chewing it.

22. I can be emo at times but I do what I can to not expose it to others because it might affect
them too.

23. When I come back from sports, I sometimes accidentally walk in the kitchen and nearly throw
my socks in the rubbish bin instead of throwing in the laundry basket. It has happen a few
times d every month.

24. I still don't bring out my wallet outside for shopping, or movies. Instead, I just take some
money and keep it in my pocket.

25. I tend to get sleepy very fast even during classes in school but I do what I can to stay
awake.

Alright then. So there you have it. 25 facts that you should know about me. I still got more but I'm to lazy d so that's it for now. =)

Pictures of the 3rd and 4th day of Gunung Korbu XPDC

2009-04-30T11:47:00.000-07:00

As we climbed down, we witnessed this superb scenery..

Above the clouds..

Sunshine =)

Pitcher plant right? LOL..

It's kinda small but she's a beauty..

On top of Bukit Botak.. and 3 more peaks away to Korbu..

Taking a pic at Kem Kijang.

Us at Kem Seroja.

Damm.. too cloudy..

Surrounded by greenery.

Hey..that's my red bag. We're climbing to the top people.

Chee Heng and Vignes..

Chee Heng, Vignes and me.. I look awful and pale.

La-la pose.. woohoo.. Oops, I wasn't in the picture..

One with nature =)

Packing up. We're going down.Sobs..

Still packing..

Climbing down d..

It ain't easy going down. I fell down alot.

Arrr.. whisky cola.. I'm thirsty..

Shaun and Wilson..

Look!! over there!! It's, It's ..

Would u believe that all of them slept together in that same tent on
the 3rd night?

Hey!! that's me..

Breakfast in the tent.. =)

Shaun and Emily..

Jeung Han, Kah Sern and Chee Peng..

All 6 of us slept together in that tent on the 3rd night..

The BEST night ever of all the nights during this expedition.. =)

Scenery on top of Korbu peak..

Almost sunrise.. 10,9,8,7,6,5,....

..4,3,2......

Jeung Han, Vikki and Theresa..

SMK USJ 8 boleh!!!!!!

Introducing.... (drum roll)

Mount Korbu Playboy model:

SHAUN LEE HOE MAN.. =)

Why is Peng so serious?

Wilson, Shaun, me, Vikki, Andrew and Jeung Han..

132nd PJ altogether..

Ex- students and teachers..

All the girls who joined this expedition..
Weehee.. Girl Power!! 132nd PJ

Always Prepared..

XPDC Mount Korbu 13th till 17th March 2009 (13th and 14th March 2009)

2009-04-26T10:45:00.000-07:00

Korbu!! Bring it on..

We have been warned!!

That's our first campsite for the first night.

Tanjung Rambutan.. Oooo..

Supposingly, Gua Tempurung is somewhere below it..

Vignes took a picture of this scenery in the bus as we passed by Ipoh..

132PJ and KRS..

Us at school before we left..

The highest point is Gunung Korbu..

Hehe.. I'm promoting my nescafe pouch..

Us at base camp..

Our journey begins.

Love the background scenery.. =)

Finally in the jungle..

While crossing this river, I tripped and fell.

Breathtaking..

Ain't that a beauty..

Simply amazing..

The water was really cold and refreshing. =)

The next campsite..

I'll just start out the part we all reached the base camp. It was already late night once we got there. We took out our belongings and began walking to the campsite. Well, it wasn't really a campsite. It was actually a tar road but it was our only spot. We pitched our tents and immediately, Peng and Jeung Han got in and started lying down about to sleep. We placed the fly sheet(poncho) on the ground in front our tent. Most of us gathered there and sat enjoying the cool breeze. After briefing from En.Noraizam, we went back to our tents to get a good night sleep. End of day 1, 13th March 2009.

Day 2, 14th March 2009- We got up, packed up, brushed our teeth's, had breakfast, warmed up and our journey begins. We walked to our gathering point to meet up with the rangers. Soon after their briefing, we began to walk again. For 2 hours straight, we were all walking on tar road. Only once, we crossed a river. Everyone crossed the river without falling except me. Somehow I lost my balance. I felt twice actually. Was bloody angry whenever I felt down especially during mountain climbing. Anyway, as we walked, we passed by the dam.My first time seeing a real dam real life. The view was extraordinary. Made me felt at ease and peaceful. Finally we got in the jungle road. Now, our real challenge began. I carried my bag and the bloody heavy tent which was a pain in the ass for me. It slowed down my climbing speed.

At one time we reached a checkpoint. All the time, I was climbing with Jason's group but actually my real group were way ahead of me. Plus, it was lunch time so they told me to go ahead and catch up with the rest of my group to join them for lunch. I climbed alone. Two roads diverged at one point. One was going up while the other was going through the river. I took the one going up. Bad move. As I struggled climbing, I soon realized that the trek was hard and so were the obstacles. Then, the were no signs of footsteps or any broken twigs. Soon, it was a dead end. Something told me that I shouldn't go on. 'Turned back!!' it said and so I did. I got back to Jason's group. Told them I lost my way. I was sweating alot and my body was burning hot. I took out my shirt only to found out there were more than 5 leeches on me. Plucked them out and flicked it away.

I ate abit of my biscuits for lunch and continued on with them. At least I wasn't the only one who didn't know which road to take. I told them the part I got lost and they recheck again. Actually, the real way was to take the river path. The ranger told us to look out for the rock signs to know if we're on the right path during the briefing. Truth is, that part only had one rock which was a wrong sign. That's how we all got confused. Finally, after climbing and climbing, got back together with my group again. En.Noraizam was there too. Told him I nearly got lost. Finally, at 6pm or so, we finally reached the middle campsite, Kem Seroja. It started raining by then.

Shivering!! Later on, finally took my shower at the river. OMG, the water was so cold just like cold water. I bet if I put my can drink there for awhile, It would have become cold too. I finally changed to new clothing's. Felt really comfortable after that. Had rice for dinner. Then, was in Theresa's tent chit chatting. Soon after that, I got back to my tent.It was crampy. Found a small spot for myself and squeezed in and slept. End of day two, 14th March 2009.. =)

Happy Birthday Jie Sheng!! // =)

2009-04-24T10:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY Jie Sheng!! =)

That's my class, 5 Cerdik!!

Yup..that's my class..

Yala!! That's my class..

Just for laughs.. =)

That's even better.

Monday and Tuesday. So hectic. Why? We were in charge of the photo shoot session which lasted for those 2 days. From morning till late afternoon, we(AJK of SMK USJ 8 Sidang Redaksi 2009) ran around coordinating the places, finding the teachers and classes and carrying the tables and chairs.All and all, It was worth it. We settled everything faster than the years before. En Noraizam said how proud he was for us and complimented us.

Moving on, I decided to rewrite my previous exam essay mainly to put it in the school magazine under the 'Karya' section. Hopefully, my essay will be accepted. Only this time, I wrote it longer than the previous.

What else.. Hmmm, I did my high jump this week on Monday. Was surprised that I could actually jump 1.53M high. I got 1st place baby!! My first gold medal of the year.

Alright, now I'm gonna blog about 24th of April 2009. Woohoo.. Before I forget, wishing Jie Sheng =) a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY. May all your wishes come true and hope u had a great birthday. Lastly, thank you so much for accompanying me to Starbucks last week. The breakfast meal was delicious and simple. A quite big cup of freshly brewed Starbucks coffee (Ahhh.. so tempting) and sandwich. RM 6.15cents after discount if you received the digi message. Jie Sheng got the message. That's why we both wanted to go there.We walked all the way there and back. During that time, we managed to talk alot mostly about personal stuffs.we both managed to pour out what we both wanted to say. Oops, I said to much..

Ok then. 24th April 2009. It was a Friday. Here we go..

As usual, Jiann(me) went to school as early as he could but before he entered, he decided to buyNasi Lemak+nasi+paru just opposite the school. That's his early routine every Friday. Jiann then walked in and straight to the prefect room. He took out his physics revision book and add maths question papers to do a little revision while waiting for the school bell to ring. While doing, a tie flew past him from behind. He retrieved the tie and looked behind to find out that it was obviously Jyen who threw it to him. He smiled at her and continued his revision holding her tie the same time. 'KRINGG!!' the bell rang. He packed up and went to Jyen to pass back the tie. =)

After assembly, he changed to his track bottoms and t-shirt for PJ. At the same time, a last rehearsal for the marching was being conducted too. Jiann only managed to went for a jog and played volleyball for awhile. He had to attend the rehearsal as he is going to read the sports vow on sports day which is on 26th April 2009!! This time for the rehearsal, he managed to read the vow without referring to the paper which he wrote the vow in. He recited the whole vow correctly. After that, he cheered for himself. Woohoo!!

After recces, there was a prefect meeting which took up most of the physics time for his class. He went up class after the meeting. He was shocked!! 'What is Jyen and Audrey doing at my table?' he said to himself. They didn't notice him. Slowly, he walked to them and surprised them. Hui Yi was in class too but she didn't bother about the both of them. After they left, he read through the essay they wrote on his essay book. Actually, they continued the story for him since he only wrote the introduction. It was a disturbing essay to read. He immediately rubbed it off.

The next one hour later was BM. The teacher only taught one 'sajak'. After school, Jiann went home and took his bath and got ready for the Frisbee prefect council held in SMK Seafield. Luckily, his mom was free that time to fetch him, Jyen, Jia Ming and his brother. After warming up their throws in the field as soon as they arrived at the school, they all gathered at their grouping place which was hot. Jiann was sitting in between Jyen and Theresa. Jia Ming was standing and holding Jiann's legs. The girls thought that Jia Ming was interested in him. Soon, the match started. After an hour plus of playing, their team triumph first place. While resting, all of a sudden, Jyen put on one of Jiann's MP3 earpiece to Jiann's left ear. It was the chorus of the song 'Photo' by Ryan Cabrera. She only let him hear the chorus and then she took it back. Jiann then was wondering what was Jyen actually trying to do to him. Hmm..

As soon as the competition was over, their team packed up. Theresa, Jyen and Emily managed to go back by car while the rest of them walked. Halfway walking, Jiann received a phone call from Jyen. She said that her house key was with Jia Ming and it was the only key for her to get in her home.Without it, she can't enter her home and can't go for tuition.To add to the distress, her tuition starts at 7.30pm and she just only got back home at 7pm. Somehow, after hearing that from her, Jiann took the key and started walking fast. As soon as he got out from USJ 2, he started jogging fast all the way to her house which was nearly 2km from USJ 2. He jogged and jogged breathing in carbon monoxide, CO3. Still, he forced himself to go on. Finally, he arrived. He was a little tired but at least he made it there at 7.15pm. She still had time to prepare herself to get ready for tuition. Jiann got back home later and took his shower. Now he felt so sleepy and tired. Right after dinner, he went in his room and dozed off. He got up at 11pm and went online to do some FUCKING research on Frisbee stack and prepare a fucked up assignment on that topic. After that, he went to his blog and here he is blogging. =)

Tiring weekday...

2009-04-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

I guess Bronze was good enough.. =)

This weekday of the weak was really tiring and exhausting for me. Let's start with Monday. I was late. Supposed to be at school by 6.50am but I ended up reaching at 7. Well, only Terence, Khomanthy, Daniel, Adam and me were participating for the tennis MSSD singles which was held at Kelana Jaya. For the under 18 category, there were like 3 rounds to qualify to semifinals. I made it through the first round since there were no opponent listed in my draw. 2nd round, I faced a guy from SMK USJ 12. He is also a left handed. Kinda enjoyed playing that match since I aced him quite alot but bare in mind yea. He's a good player too. Played for 2 years. Won him 8-1. 20 minutes later after that game was the quarter finals against Jonathan Ding from SMK Seafield. Guess what. He is also left handed. I immediately spotted his weakness which was his backhand during the warm up. The best thing about him is his forehand. He has beautiful and powerful top spin forehand. He pressured me big time wei while playing. Eventually I triumph an 8-5 win against him. After the match, he told me he played for almost 9 years wei. That's long. Anyway, Monday was the happiest day for me since I made it through semi finals and struggled playing against 2 experienced players. On Tuesday which was doubles, Terence and me were partners but lost at the 2nd round. I guessed It was my fault for not trying harder enough to calm Terence since he was nervous and choking while playing. Sorry yea Terence. Oh yea, all 10 of our tennis squad members went for doubles. This year, we had new players from form 1. Daniel, Adam Bakhtiar, Adam Abu Bakar and Ameer. They may look short but once they play, wow!!! their strokes are almost as hard as mine. =) Plus, they were bloody hilarious. They really talk alot.

On Wednesday was the semifinals for doubles and singles. This time, only 8 of us went. Ok. I'll just put it this way. 9/10 from our squad received medals. 2 silvers and 7 bronze which was a great and highest achievement of all the years. I'm so proud of my squad. =)

Sadly, on Thursday, I was so lost during add maths. Of course la!!! I missed 3 days of add maths plus there were tons of homework to do. Gosh, I didn't really enter class that much too since the rehearsal for sports day was being carried out. I have to read the sports vows. Pn. Tan Chin Chin said it is an honour to read it in front of everyone. Well, yea it is but kinda nervous wei if I ever screw up during sports day. Touch wood it wont happen. =) Well same goes to Friday, had rehearsal too. Got home and slept until 4 then took my shower and went for Frisbee at Sunway. It's been quite some time d since I last played there. Had a really great time there. Everyone was enjoying themselves playing Frisbee. That's the best part about Frisbee. Today, I didn't play that bad. I felt like myself again playing Frisbee.Still, something wasn't right. Yp didn't came!!! LOL...

13-17th of April 2009... =)

Happy B' Day Dad!!!

2009-04-12T10:46:00.000-07:00

The box looks so cool... RM 9.00 wei...

That's the one. 'Kent'. Hope he likes it eventhough

he hasn't try it.

ARRR... Simply the best... =)

11th APRIL 2009. It's Dad's B'Day and got school on that day and It was a Saturday. Was so sleepy in school. Only studied History and add maths only I think. Sigh... someone wrote my name for the Leo Idol thinge which means that I have to fucking pay RM 7 for the damm bus since we're actually going there to support Andrew. Told Pei Wen that I couldn't go since later at night might be going out for dinner with my family to celebrate Dad's b'day. After school, went home, changed and had lunch. As soon as mom and dad went out, I took some of my money to buy a present for dad. Walked all the way to seven eleven to buy cigarettes for him. Bought 'Kent'. Looks nice wei so thought he might liked it. After all, I don't know what else to get for him. Told mom about it and she keeps saying that it'll only motivate him to continue smoking but I think It's still the same. He's already addicted and he won't stop so FUCK OFF LA. Let him smoke and be happy.

Got home and wrapped the gift for him in a big box so that it won't look obvious to mom. I left for Frisbee training after that. Kinda suck so bad today while playing a game. Suck really really really bad. After training, went home and took my shower and off to Puchong for dinner. Before that, dad told me 'Eh. I don't smoke this kind of brand ok!!! but thanks' The way he said it was kinda rude but I just ignored it since its his fucking b' day. He even asked me not to buy it anymore and don't smoke. Wow, look who's talking. He can smoke la but I can't smoke but hehe, relax kay, I'm not smoking and never will!!! Told mom about what dad said.It was only for her to hear and no one else. I mean, if he doesn't appreciate it, he didn't have to say it with a rude tone to me right? Anyway, My uncle came too. Still, I always call him 'Le Lek Khor khor'. LOL... He bought a Johnie Walker 'Blue Label' whisky wei for my dad. I had only one glass and it was really strong but smooth. =) Later, suddenly mom just told everyone that dad didn't appreciate the cigarettes I bought for him in front of my uncle, auntie and family. Dad just replied a little while the rest kinda like ignored it. OMG... that's the thing I hate about my mom. She can never keep secrets and whenever she's angry, she releases all her anger on you by scolding and bragging. How fucked up is that!!! Every secret I have ever told her, she'll tell the whole world later on. Oh well, lazy la typing d. Toddles everyone. Last but not least, HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY DAD!!! =) Thanks for everything. You may not be the best dad but you are good enough for me. =)

9th and 10th of April 2009. So occupied... =(

2009-04-12T10:08:00.000-07:00

Tiring + super tiring = Extremely tiring!!!

This week seemed kind of tiring. Was out almost everyday. It's either I'm out of I'm at home sleeping in the afternoon only to wake up burning hot since I didn't on the fan. Anyway, at least I started doing my revision. Well, not everyday but almost and It's worth it since I haven't been doing revision at all last time. Thanks to yp who gave me a call and motivated me to do revision, I'm finally starting to revise. It's been quite some time since the last she called. She's kinda busy now so I understand. Thank you so much yp. =) Moving on, on Thursday, 9.4.09, after school, I had to attend the engineering drawing project thing after school. Have to draw using the computer with the Auto Cad program. It was so boring but no choice ma. It ends at 5 but I left earlier about 4.30p.m because Literature In English (LIE) tuition starts at 5. Got home took my shower and of for tuition. Reached kinda late but still managed to understand the poem learned during the tuition.

Next, kancil tuition starts at 7 and LIE tuition ends at 7. Dad arrive abit late but managed to rushed to Kancil asap. Kancil tuition ended at 10pm. Got home at about 10.30pm and just dozed off without even packing my bag, doing homework, revision and brushing my teeth. So tired wei.
Friday le... after school, went home, took my lunch and did abit of work. About 3.30pm went to school to give the forms to the 4 form 1 boys joining the tennis MSSD. Met up with Jue Wern and her younger sister Ju Yee. Oh wait... did I spell that right ah?LOL... Anyway, was chatting with her while waiting for the afternoon session recess to start so that I could find the boys and give the forms. She on the other hand was in school to play netball for the prefect council. Had a really great time chatting with her. Next, rushed back home and got dressed up ready to go to MPSJ field for the 800m finals. Sobs... only got 5th place out of 11. Played frisbee at there for awhile after that and walked back to school to give back Man Yi's bottle which she left at MPSJ.

Jyen was at school but Man Yi went back so gave the bottle to Jyen instead. Oh yea, she got 1st place for 800m for L1 girls. Congrats Jyen!!! =) Later we played Frisbee at school for awhile. Jyen, Aaron and me. Jyen and I both had to go back first.She got tuition and I got to go to church. Walked with her to her place first then I walked back home. Took a quick shower and off to City Harvest church in Shawn Lee's car. Damm it was packed. 8 of us in total in his Perodua Viva. Luckily, we arrived safe but my leg was numb since Peng sat on my lap. Haha so was Ling's leg too. Oh yea, Ling and me were chatting in the car. She's 16 and studying in USJ 4. That's how I got to know her. Wow, the drama was awesome wei. City Harvest church rocks wei... Their drama was superb. Later, had supper with the same gang in the car and a few more and finally reached home at 1am. So bloody sleepy...

YAWNING!!! =O

A not so good week..

2009-04-05T09:23:00.000-07:00

Jeung han and me at our simple archway. =)

Let's just say I had a terrible weak. Well, you can tell the moment you set your eyes on the title on this post. I'm not gonna crap to much about it. Firstly, my exam marks that I received this week was so bad. I deprove so bad. I use to be the highest for English in my class but now I'm not.Last term, I got like 89.Now I got only FUCKING 74. The worst part is, Jia Ming and Shaun even beat me.Not just them, alot of my classmates. I'm so demotivated now. I never expected them to beat me in English. This is so wrong. Well if u have read my previous post in february or march I guess titled 'Fucking Food Poisoning' than maybe it might explain to you guys why I deprove. Maybe that caused me to deprove. Oh I don't know. I'm just so devastated now. I know.I just know I can do better. I don't deserve this shit. I screwed up big time for my first term. Before the exam, I made a promise to yp that I would do better but I guess I didn't. I'm so sorry yp.

next, my history teacher didn't want to teach us caused some of us don't have her notes including me. Bloody hell, we weren't in class that time so of course we don't have it and went we wanted to buy it from her, she says that she has no more copies left.Fucked up right.... and then she starts babbling and scolding at us. oh well, luckily, she started teaching again the next day later.

Enough of the bad stuffs. I hope you readers get the picture of it. Oh by the way, I finally took of my TL badge after so long. It was kinda sad but I've got to move on. It's Jyen's turn to continue. Oh yea, speaking of Jyen. Whenever she smiles at me, it just made my day. I don't know why but that's the fact. Thank you so much Jyen. =) Attending scout meeting as a normal scout now seems kinda weird for me. Well, this week, sir Ryui Bynn came. The senior scouts had to build an archway using only 4 mangrove woods, and 4 staffs only. Well, my patrol built something simple since the supply of wood was low.

I just went out for movies. Watched 'The Fast and the Furious' It was an ok ok show la. I rate 3/5. That's all for now. Toodles.. =)

A Chapter of Our Love Story.

2009-04-03T09:59:00.000-07:00

When I'm with you,
Nothing else matters,
All that's to matter is you,
Only you,
My one and only.

When you are right beside me,
So close to me,
Our shoulders touching each other,
Hands together,
One thing only appears to me,
'I'm with you'

At that very moment,
You looked at me,
With that sweet smile of yours,
That lights up the darkness in me,
Which always does,
And then,
We kissed,
lips to lips,
Oh... how sweet your lips are,

As obvious as it is,
I so trully love you,
With every beat of my heart,
and I don't need to prove that,
I just need you to believe it,
Believe in our love,

It's our love story dear,
This is just one part of it,
Still incomplete,
waiting to go on,
Until the last chapter.

Murderer ... me!!! XC

2009-03-29T09:03:00.000-07:00

28Th March 2009

Attending the scout meeting for the first time after stepping down from TL really felt weird and a little sad. I was saying to myself 'I used to be there once on the stage for every meeting. Now I'm just a simple scout'... Hell, I even told my other COH members... I can tell they too were sad... One year of service as TL and COH member of 132 seemed kind of fast. Anyway... what's done is done. We did our duty.We did our part. Now its up to 2009-2010 COH to carry on. Don't think I wanna talk much about the meeting. All we did was played games for the Pengakap Remaja's. Leanne and me managed to move out from the meeting for awhile. Haha... Jun Ee, needed our help to so call 'lift up the Pandu Puteri's spirit'. She was one of the AJK. When we got to their meeting place, Leanne and me could tell already how dead the meeting was. After we started playing games with them and teaching them new games, everything just changed.From a so dead bunch of girls to a more lively bunch of girls. After that, we were just in time to join in our scout meeting. They were about to start a game called 'Itik Itik Angsa'... It was a funny game. Overall, I think the meeting was OK but they can still do better.

Went home about 11plus I guess.I actually hanged out in school for awhile before going back. Around 3plus, went to Sungai Congkak,Hulu Langat for 'Backwoods Men'. Sir Ryui Bynn fetched us there. Kah Sern, Terence,Peng and me were the only Form 5's there.The rest were the new COH. So we had to cook chicken, fish, rice and roti lilit. The fish was already dead but the chicken, It was a life one. Sir said we had to learn how to kill a chicken even though its not in the Maju Badge syllabus.He said it was to train our survival skills. Yes Its true but I mean, I would only kill a chicken when in need of it but for this, we were forced to kill it. Terence and me were the only one to kill the chicken from our group. The other boys refused plus we were running out of time. First, we tied the chicken wings and legs. Before we could kill it, one of the bones from the wings broke and pierced out from the skin because it was struggling so badly and I was holding the wings so tight. Imagine the pain the chicken had already suffered before dying. Next, while I hold the chicken, Terence tried to slit its throat.First of all, WE Had no FUCKING idea how to slit its fucking throat and sir kept rushing us to kill it. I streched the neck and it saw me in the eye. U can tell how suffering the chicken was and bloody hell, the knife he used was fucking blunt.Fucked up blunt. It took him some time to fully slit its throat but Terence slitted the back of the neck. OMG... blood was oozing out. The chicken still alive but helpless with its neck loose. Sir then asked me to drowned it in the water. It was still alive. I mean, How fucking cruel can we be.First, the bone snapped out.Then Terence slitted the wrong way.Now, drowning it.It was still alive. It even tried to push itself up to breathe but I hold it down tight with all my strengh until it finally died.

After that, Terence cut off the whole head.You know... I really felt like killing myself that time. I felt so so so bad and guilty. The chicken didn't deserve to die that way. It was horrible. A horrible death for it. Well, next, Terence helped the other group to kill the other chicken while Man Yi and I skinned the chicken. At one part , we had to cut through the bud and pull out whatever in the body. Oh... the intestine was still so warm and slimy. Man Yi pulled out the heart and liver. The body was empty after that but the body was still so warm. I cleaned the chicken and started marinating it together with Man Yi and Wai Leong. Jyen didn't even dare to touch the chicken. Well after finished cooking it the 'Backwoods Man' way, we finally packed up and left the place. Sadly, our food was like half cooked especially the rice. Oh well... we finally got back at around 10.30pm. I took my shower. I was so sleepy I just couldn't go online. One thing's for sure, I've done a horrible sin.A big one. I don't think I'll ever forget it. Anyway, once I get the pictures, I'll post it alright so be sure to fucking check it out. =(

Simple, normal and nothing much =)

2009-03-27T10:58:00.000-07:00

Oh no.. I got sukantara today. I brought my track bottoms but I didn't bring my shirt. What the fish wei. Luckily I managed to call my mom to bring it.Thanks Chew for the phone. (He's in afternoon session.) Hehe, I got 11 seconds for 100metre race which was in the sukantara. Still not good enough but ok la tu.. After that, I changed and went straight for the religion talk the school organized. I attended the Sikh talk. I actually learned allot after the talk. Maybe its time I go to the Sikh temple.Maybe I should be a true Sikh unlike my dad because right now, I don't know which religion to follow. After school, I passed by the tennis court while walking home. OMG coach was there fixing the nets. I stopped by to help out. Spent nearly two hours helping him but I guess it was worth it. I managed to learn something on how to repair nets. I rushed home and changed.Had my lunch in the car. I went to PJ merely to find this bookshop which sells literature books and references. 'University Book shop' I think was the name of the shop. Finally got that book i really needed to study for plays 'An Inspector Calls'. I even bought the reference book. All together was RM 45 man. So damm expensive since its an international brand. I got home but late for Frisbee training. I packed and rushed to school but training was cancelled in the end since very few showed up. Hmm.. that's all for today.. =)

27th March 2009.

Its just not right.. =(

2009-03-27T09:55:00.000-07:00

We're arrested but it doesn't like it..

The stage. It's really big..

SMK USJ 8 Drama Team.

U8!!

Ee Lynn asked us all to be at school by 6.15am sharp. Guess what time I woke up? LOL.. 6.10am =) I took my shower, changed, ate my breakfast and rushed straight to school. I arrived around 6.50am. 40 minutes late!! Oh well.. fuck it. I don't care. Soon, the bus arrived and off we go to SMK teknik Shah Alam for our inter school Drama competition. Out of the 7 teams, we were the first to perform which was actually a good thing. I wasn't really that nervous but Ii really had to pee. That time, we were about to perform d. Sigh.. all I could say to myself was 'Hold on Glad.Hold on!!' Still, I also had sore throat. I couldn't talk soft but I could talk loud. Weird!! I guess my voice projection wasn't that good due to the fucking sore throat.

After we finished, we watched other team perform. Oh yea, the food there was superb for school standard. Its so much better and cleaner than our school canteen food. Yes I'm discriminating our school canteen 'SMK USJ 8 canteen food sucks!!' but I'm still like eating it since its the only heavy meal in the school. Anyway, moving on. USJ 4 emerged as champions followed by runners up SMK Seafield and third place SMK Bandar Sunway. Kinda disappointed that our team couldn't get any placing. Third would have been good enough but sometimes, not everything turns out the way you want it to be. Still we received praises from other school teachers from what I heard but common 'It doesn't even matter'. The conclusion is ,' We fucking lost so fucked those praises. I don't give a shit about it. It means nothing to me.

We finally arrived home at 2.30pm I guess. As soon as I got down from the bus, Jia Yin was already there asking me to get back my chemistry results and check my answers.I rushed up to class but teacher was almost done discussing the paper. Bloody hell I couldn't even find my paper. Eventually it was in one of my friends desk. By the time I found it, teacher already left. =( Haih.. I guess there's nothing much to say d. Oh yea.. I missed my Literature tuition.Sigh.. What a crappy day..

26th March 2009.

Away for the Day.

2009-03-20T12:08:00.000-07:00

Why oh why!!! I woke up late again.I'm suppose to be at school at 8.30am for the engineering drawing folio crap. I ended up waking up at 9plus. I quickly took my shower, had my breakfast and off to school.Luckily I wasn't the only one late. Jeung Han also came late. At least I had a partner in crime. Since we were late, we were totally blurred out when teacher was teaching us how to draw tangent using the computer.Thank God Peng showed us how to draw it over and over again. At least I got the idea. Sigh... nearly forgotten that Shaun, Peng, Kah Sern and me had to go for movies and we were late. The movie starts at 12.15pm and we finished our class at 11.30plus. I rushed home, quickly dressed up and went to the bus stop along with Shaun and Kah Sern.Oh yea, Andrew too. On the way out from court 6, caught up with Jyen. She seemed a little happy that time. I hope she's feeling better. Get well soon Jyen!!! =) and sowee yea for not able to reply your message. My phone no credit. Sigh... so sowee Jyen.

How fucking long must I wait for a fucking bus to come. We waited nearly half an hour. Finally a Rapid KL bus came. Oh well, we arrived super duper fucking late but when we got to the cinema, Theresa, Tasha and Tim were still outside.' Movie starts at 2.30pm la Glad. Changed time d.' says Theresa to me. OMG... never mine. Chill.

So after watching the movie. Oh yea we watched 'Race to Witch Mountain'. BORING!!! The only best thing about the show was the girl that acted in that movie. Rrrrrr... =) Still I wasted RM 9. =( Anyway... got home kinda late again. Haih!!! Took my shower.Got dressed up and off to Sunway to attend 'Friends Night' gathering organized by City Harvest church. Thanks Wil... for
inviting me to the gathering. It was really great. Later on, we went for supper at some high class Mamak restaurant and it so happens to have 'Shisha' or whatever u call it there. Gosh, the smell was very tempting. More like the fruity smell but I didn't smoke it. I'm a good boy. =)

Anyway, I left early. Sylvester, ( Wilson's Cousin) fetched me back home along with some other people. Reached home nearly 12.30am I think.Thanks alot Sylvester. =) Wow... what a day. Hmmm, I just notice something.

I was out almost the whole day. =)

Nothing much... Just another normal day =(

2009-03-18T09:31:00.000-07:00

Just came back from Korbu. Woohoo... I'm so fucking tired and exhausted but it was a great trip. Reached back around 10pm. Went to 'Maju' for supper then walked back home with Terence. Gosh... it took me an hour to take my shower. LOL... Aiks... my legs hurt.Arrr... =( Blisters,cuts and leech bites. Anyway, I started cleaning up my haversack (camping bag). After that, managed to go online for awhile. Slept at 2am and woke up at 8am for friendly Frisbee against USJ 4. Wow!!! they improved wei. Well, I wont say I played well today. My throwing suck again so were my catches and handling. =( Well, in the end, we won. Later on, we went for breakfast again at 'Maju'. LOL... After eating, we all started chatting. Soon, we left. Instead of walking home, I walked with Ming back to his home. Sounds kinda gay but I didn't really mind. Arrived home around 2pm. I was so sleepy that I slept on the floor. Aiks, I haven't take my shower yet wei.LOL... "Woke up around 6.15pm.Damm it!!! late for tuition. I took my shower and off to tuition.Went home later, had dinner, read 'Holes'( novel) and here I am now blogging but don't really have much to say.